A Very Desperate New Year's
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I have to admit that as usual I haven't updated because nothing really particularly interesting has been happening as far as my fetish goes or desperation goes. Unfortunately I have been sick a real lot the last couple of months with my acid reflux acting up severely. I was sick right before Thanksgiving, again before Christmas and again just this first week of the year. More unfortunately is that there was something wrong with me and I will need more stomach surgery which means even more time in the hospital. And when I am sick like this I pretty much lose all interest in my fetishes.

But almost every single year when they have that ball dropping in New York at New Year's I always think how people are rounded up into corrals and they aren't allowed to go to the bathroom for hours and have to stay in place all that time and that made me think that would be a good idea for a fictional story! So the following story is completely fictional as I would never be crazy enough to actually go to the city on New Year's Day like that and I can't understand why anyone would, even though it would probably be great for desperation sightings. Sadly I rarely come across anyone who has any to share as far as New Year's goes, but here's a story where that does happen! My life maybe boring but I have a vivid imagination. So without further ado…

A Very Desperate New Year's
"I can't believe we are going to finally get to see the ball drop in Times Square," said Stacy. "I have wanted to do this for years and years."
"I know, it's pretty cool isn't it," said Brad, her boyfriend.
"I have been looking forward to it for a long time," said Linda, her sister. "But the thing is I really really have to pee. All the coffee I have been drinking to stay warm is going straight through me."
"I'm afraid we can't leave the corral, ladies," said Brad. "Once we are in our assigned spots were not allowed to leave or we will lose them."
"But the ball isn't going to drop for hours!" Linda screamed as she suddenly crossed her legs tightly.
"Hey, I told you not to drink so much," said Brad as he shrugged his shoulders.
"So we are just supposed to hold it in?" Stacy asked as she suddenly stopped sipping on her coffee.
"Hey you were the ones who wanted to come here," said Brad. "I probably could have stayed at home and watched this without freezing my nuts off like I do every year. It seems like a lot of hubbub just to watch the ball drop and be sprinkled with confetti."
"Don't say the word sprinkled," Linda said as she put her hands between her legs and began hopping from foot to foot. "There's no way I can possibly last hours."
"It'll be okay, just hold on and I am sure that the time will pass like nothing," said Stacy, who didn't want to admit to herself that she was also starting to feel a tingle between her loins begging for relief.
The three of them stood there for a long time slowly sipping their coffee to stay warm in spite of the fact that their bladders were filling up rather quickly.
"We still have nearly 4 hours to go!" Linda shouted as she paced back and forth in that small area trying to control herself. "I'm going crazy here."
"Just don't think about it," said Stacy as she discreetly stepped on her own foot to distract herself from the growing need in her own bladder.
"I can't help it, I'm about to piss myself!" Linda said as she pulled on her hair.
"Well that might warm you up," said Stacy who started jogging in place both to keep warm and to keep her mind focused off of her bladder. She could see her breath in front of her face while she was jogging.
"I'm not joking around here, this is an emergency," Linda said as she practically twisted her body into a pretzel to take the pressure off.
"You shouldn't have finished your coffee so quickly," Stacy said as she shook her head as she took a sip of her own coffee to realize that she had just finished hers as well. "Well I guess I jinxed myself there."
"I'm almost tempted to pee in that cup myself!" Linda said as she grabbed the cup and rolled it in her hands. "But there's no way I could do that discreetly and I wouldn't want to get photographed in a crowd like this peeing into a cup as that would be all over the Internet in no time flat."
"Well if you're not going to use it I will," said Brad as he grabbed the cup. "I couldn't help but overhear your conversation ladies and it made me realize that I'm about to piss myself as well." Very discreetly Brad took his penis out and started peeing into the cup. He managed to fill it to the top before dumping it onto the street and continued to fill it more.
"That's gross!" Stacy shouted as Brad dumped the pee onto the ice below.
"But effective!" said Brad as he handed the cup back to Linda.
"Sure if you have a penis and don't mind nearly freezing it off," said Stacy, who began to do a subtle pee dance that did not go unnoticed.
"I could really use a penis right now," Linda said with a laugh as she grabbed herself and started hopping rapidly in place and swinging her arms back and forth. "I seriously can't remember the last time I had to pee so freaking bad."
"Then just go in the cup," said Brad. "I am sure that you can do it discreetly."
"No way!" said Linda as she stood there holding the cup and dancing.
"Suit yourself," said Brad. "But we still have a long wait ahead of us so you might change your tune in a short amount of time."
A short amount of time later…
"I'm dying here," Linda said as her eyes began watering. "There's no way I'm going to make it. Maybe there is some way I can pee in the cup."
"How?" Stacy asked.
"Maybe you could hold it for me and I could pull my pants down a bit and just pee into the cup," said Linda as she handed Stacy the cup.
"You really think you can maneuver like that? But I don't want to hold a cup that you're going to pee in, you'll pee all over my hands!"
"I totally won't!"
"You certainly will!"
"Wow you girls really are getting desperate," said Brad with a laugh, his own urinary needs met by the cup not long before, his urine still frozen to the ground right beneath them as a painful and tantalizing reminder.
"Give me the cup I'll do it myself!" Linda shouted as she grabbed the cup. But as soon as she grabbed the cup she uncrossed her legs and soon she began frowning.
"What's the matter?" Stacy asked but that was when she noticed a wet spot appearing on Linda's pants. It wasn't obvious because she was wearing dark pants, but Stacy had been staring directly at her and could see the liquid going down her legs, which was driving her out of her mind with desperation as she suddenly remembered her own need that came screaming back to the surface!
"I peed myself!" said Linda who was turning red with embarrassment.
"Gross," said Brad as he laughed.
"Humiliating!" Stacy shouted.
"But it was so worth it," said Linda and she simply smiled. "And I actually do feel warmer right now!"
Stacy stuck her fingers in her mouth and bit down on her hand.
"What's the matter Stacy?" Linda asked.
"I still have to pee!" Stacy shouted as she tightly crossed her legs and began rubbing her knees, both to get them warm and to try and take her mind off her bladder. "I think all of the hot urine inside of me is probably the only thing that is keeping me warm right now. The rest of me feels completely numb."
"You think you can make it?" Linda asked.
"I am going to try."
And try Stacy did! She somehow managed to get to the next couple of hours without an accident and soon it was time for the ball to drop.
"10, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one, happy new year!" everyone counted down and shouted. Several people started hugging each other but all Stacy could think about was that she needed to pee, and she needed to pee fast!
"So was it worth waiting all that time ladies?" Brad asked.
"You know in spite of everything, it was," Linda said.
"What about you Stacy?" Brad asked.
"I need a freaking bathroom!" Stacy shouted. "You have to find me one right away."
Stacy took off and the two followed shortly after as she pushed her way through the crowd looking for a store that might have an open bathroom. After a few blocks they finally found a store that was open but it had a huge line for the one toilet.
"There are like 20 or 30 people in line out the door!" Linda shouted. "Maybe you can find another place?"
"No, I am staying right here!" Stacy shouted as she got into line and started bobbing up and down and biting her lip.
The next 20 min. passed slower than Stacy thought possible and the line only inched forward a few people. But finally after what seemed like eternity it was nearly her turn when the girl in front of her came out. "Sorry, I clogged it," she said as she left the bathroom. "Guess you'll have to find some place else to go."
"Well that's a bummer isn't it," said Brad, to which he and Linda began laughing.
"Fuck it," Stacy said as she ran into the bathroom slammed the door behind her and sat down in the sink and let it rip. She couldn't believe just how much she had peed and how long she had been holding it for and soon the entire sink was drenched. The sink was so full of urine that she didn't want to bother washing her hands afterwards as she figured she would get less pee on herself if she didn't wash her hands.
"All done," she said as she confidently emerged from the bathroom.
"I thought someone said that the bathroom was out of order," another woman said as she hobbled over with crossed legs.
"It is, the toilet is clogged and I wouldn't use the sink either," said Stacy as she began laughing. She then decided to sit down with her companions have a pizza and some soda.
As she sat there with Brad and Linda, her bladder finally empty, all she could think of was that she started the new year off just right.

Well that's all folks, hope you enjoyed. This story again was totally fictional, but I hope that that doesn't make a difference. This one also involved some wedding which I know a lot of people like although I am mainly just into the desperation aspects. But I think it all works pretty well here but I'll leave that to you to judge.
Once again I don't know when I will update again but if I don't have any new experiences of my own to add I will try to update with some new fictional stories, for which I will never run out. So here's wishing you all a happy new year, and as usual I will end with some links I have collected since the last update. These aren't as many as usual, but like I said I have been sick and when I am sick I am not as interested in my fetish. And I know that they are everyone's favorite thing in my blog, as opposed to my excellent and future Pulitzer Prize winning writing! :P

-http://www.zishy.com/?cc=1&CA=945793-0000&PA=2560221 (Female nudity.)
-https://vimeo.com/168184858? (Nude woman modeling.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZGaYhUAXjM (People need to pee when people need to pee)
-https://www.buzzfeed.com/zahrafbarnes/urine-luck-pee-facts? (31 Things You Should Definitely Know About Pee.
Most people pee about seven times a day on average.
Of course, this varies a bit depending on how much you’re eating and drinking, Dr. Benjamin Brucker, assistant professor of urology at NYU Langone Medical Center tells BuzzFeed Life. Don’t worry if you go a little more or little less often.
2.The average healthy pee stream should last for about seven seconds.
“That varies a bit from person to person,” Brucker says, “but if you’re peeing for only two seconds even though you felt like you really needed to go, that may indicate you have other problems like an infection.” If that’s the case, call your doctor.)
-https://mega.nz/#!UtIkTR6T!FPsyHqUMXFSBkqiUkc3oOTcvcr_gLxcUbctIEi2zDNg (World record 2800ml piss 29 minutes long! I watched it while completely bursting LOL.)
-https://havepee.com/video/209 (Woman peeing on bench.)
-https://www.buzzfeed.com/erinchack/pee-horror-stories-that-will-make-you-feel-better-about-y? (Funny peeing stories.)

A Recent Experience at the Movies and Some Childhood Experiences with a Friend
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I haven't had a whole lot to say recently since it has only been a month since my last update but there are a few things that I thought I would mention because I had a couple of minor sightings and another topic that I wanted to bring up.
First I would just like to say something about the election. What the fuck is wrong with you America?! Hillary Clinton may not have been perfect but if you think a child raping white supremacist is better you have something seriously wrong with you! I always favored Bernie Sanders but Hillary Clinton was way better than this degenerate misogynist. I must say that I am pretty angry about the election results and pretty fearful about the future because I honestly think that this guy is a lunatic. But I don't want to say anymore about that because I channel my politics into my dystopian fiction writing, I try to leave them out of my fetishes.
Honestly after Donald Trump was elected I was so disgusted that I was unable to masturbate for nearly a week afterwards! I honestly don't think there's anything that is less attractive than him and that's enough to kill anyone's sex drive. I guess I had better watch my pussy for the next four years. But enough with that I suppose.
It would be interesting to see how one of my crazy scenarios would have influenced the election though! And yes, I actually did think of my scenario in regards to this election because it really was deeply and profoundly full of shit. But I do like writing satire and this election has generated a whole lot of stories in me and I have been very productive lately and fortunately haven't been sick in spite of my disgust at the election.
The only major experience I had recently was at the movie theater where I went to the movie theater by my cousin again with a large group of people as we do whenever there is a new Marvel movie out. That time I got a pretzel which I never pretty much have and unfortunately it really upset my stomach and that would be the pivotal thing that leads to the following story.
When we got to the movies I got a really large soda so by the end I was really desperate to pee and it was one of those movies where they always show stuff after the credits so there I was sitting with my legs crossed waiting for the credits to finally get over. But the pretzel had also upset my stomach a little bit and unfortunately you can probably guess where this story is going. Basically that pretzel made me have to poop, bad! Fortunately there wasn't really much of a line to the bathroom as it was pretty much empty but then when I got into the toilet I really crapped my brains out and I think of the other woman with us who is in the bathroom with me probably almost definitely heard, although she didn't say anything when we got out.
I feel that I am gradually overcoming my inhibition about pooping in public though. I guess it's not so much an inhibition so much as the fact that the embarrassment of it is also sort of a turn on as in my scenario. Of course it's not anywhere near as bad as my scenario where I would have to be doing that like crazy every 3 to 4 hours pretty much everywhere I go, but I always think of my scenario whenever I am forced to do the deed in public.
I also feel that I might be getting less prudish about using toilets that are less than spectacular or that have not been flushed. Like recently I went to the acupuncturist and the girl that used the bathroom before me didn't flush the toilet and it smelled in there and I sat down and used the toilet despite the fact that she left solid waste in there. Something about confronting my inhibitions like that sort of gives me a little bit of a buzz.
The other thing I would like to discuss though his recently I was chatting with someone about how I felt that a lot of these fetishes developed at a young age as a result of weird experiences leading to weird fetishes. I know I have brought up this topic before but I don't think I have mentioned this specifically. Basically I remember when I was younger I would frequently be the only girl in my friend group and I would have to pee and have to hold it while all these other guys were able to go wherever they wanted. I don't think that any of my friends were specifically interested in desperation but I do remember this one kid that I used to hang out with and in retrospect I definitely think he was interested in female desperation.
Back when I was in elementary school I knew this kid named James. He lived down the block from me and he was really poor so his house was like filthy and disgusting. I didn't have the class consciousness that I did back then (being the total socialist I am now) but I remember my mom said never to go inside of his house and I think that his family might have been a bunch of drug addicts or something, now that I look back on it. But at any rate I was never to go inside the house even to use the bathroom. If I had to use the bathroom I was supposed to go home to use the bathroom if that were the case.
But when I was hanging out with him in his backyard and stuff like that he would frequently go and pee in the bushes. The other thing about him though was that he was really I think cocky and arrogant over the fact that he could just whip it out and go wherever he wanted. The other thing about him though was that he was this weird religious fundamentalist or something and one thing he said was that the reason why girls had to sit to pee was like a punishment for the garden of Eden or something like that. That's why women would often have to hold it in and not have the convenience of peeing like a guy does. Now back then this was probably in like in third grade through sixth grade and he was like a year or two older than me so I kind of believed his crazy BS. Looking back though I can see why I am probably not religious now. But at the time I accepted this whole girls are being punished by having to pee sitting down belief.
Now here is where I can see he sort of had a clear interest in female desperation and I think I might have been experiencing some of my interest even then or at least starting to develop it. I am sure that I have mentioned numerous times when I was a kid I always had to pee all the time, and James definitely picked up on that! And I think that it rather annoyed me that he thought he had such a better bladder control than I did. I think that he definitely noticed when I had to pee because he would frequently asked me if I had to and I would sometimes try to deny it.
I think here is a habit that carried over. The fact is now whenever someone challenges me to a holding contest in a chat room I feel really bad if I don't accept no matter how unfair the terms. I never actually got into like a pee holding contest with this kid when I was younger, but I thought that he kind of thought that I was weak because I had to pee so much. So what would happen is when I was with him and he was whizzing all over the bushes rather than run home I would hold it in. And if we were someplace like school or going out somewhere else he would often point out the ladies room line and I think that you would sort of snicker and laugh over that. And I wanted to be sort of like the tough one so I would sort of laugh and snicker with him. Meanwhile the back of my head I really wanted to join the line and go to the damn bathroom! But when he was around I think that I would intentionally try to hold it sort of as an affront to him. "See I can hold it!" But the truth is I was often very uncomfortable and I think that he knew it and I think that secretly enjoyed that and I think that this probably had a development on my fetish as well. I remember a couple of times we were at places where there was a girl's line and he was sort of snickering at the girls in line and even though I had to pee a couple of times that discouraged me from getting on the line, I guess sort of like wanting to be a tough chick "I'm not like those other girls who can't control their bladders!"
But I do remember that we also chatted about bathroom related matters in general. Again we were just kids so there wasn't anything sexual at that age, but we clearly both shared a similar fascination with all things bathroom related and we had a similar sense of humor about all things potty related. He is another one of those people who would be interesting to meet in one of my crazy scenarios! Unfortunately after sixth grade he moved away and I have no idea what happened to him.
I also think that this interest ties into my interest in potty parity as well. I have mentioned before that until I heard of that I always just assumed it was the natural order that the ladies room line was women's fault and I think part of that comes from my conversations with James. He again said that the ladies room line was basically like a punishment and that was basically our fault because we took too long and all these other situations. And me being younger I sort of foolishly believed that so I just sort of accepted that when it came to bathroom access we were basically screwed and the guys basically were rewarded with easy access. But I think the main thing was that back then I had the belief that it was almost divinely ordained that women had to endure this situation and therein I think lies one of numerous reasons why I am fascinated in this gender divide in regards to bathroom access and how anatomy is destiny and all of that other stuff. I am sure Sigmund Freud would have a field day with someone like me if he were to read my journals! People will definitely say when I die that she focused too much on all things bathroom related.
I have chatted about this with some others and I think that people really do develop these interests younger. I think even little boys and little girls are somewhat fascinated by the fact that boys can pee wherever they want and the girls have to hold it. And I do think that it develops very quickly with little boys get fascinated seeing little girls desperate and little girls get fascinated with their own desperation and that this can continue into adulthood. Once again I think I have mentioned that I'm talking to people about this most guys said that they have developed the fetish as a result of seeing a woman desperate, whereas most women said it was from experience of actually being desperate. I guess given that it is not hard to believe as a child that this is somehow the divine order! But I definitely do think that children notice these things and I think that little boys are a little bit sadistic towards little girls in that regard! I certainly got teased by boys and girls alike when I had to go to the bathroom all the time and that is why sometimes I think I would like to prove it to them, especially to the guys, that I could hold it, even though I usually ended up running towards the bathroom desperate out of my mind at the end, which was always embarrassing.
But those were just some thoughts I decided to share while they were on my mind. Not a very large update but I thought I might as well record that while it was still fresh in my mind before I forgot about it. And as always I have some links to share. I don't know when I will update again but as soon as I have something interesting to report or I think of a good new fictional story to publish I will let you know! In the meantime enjoy these links!
http://shop.nordstrom.com/s/seafolly-boyleg-one-piece-swimsuit/4169025?origin=category-personalizedsort&fashioncolor=BLACK (This is the type of swimsuit that I was wearing in my swimsuit story, as you can see the "boy leg" suit does not facilitate easy urination or defecation. You can't just pull it to the side so it's easier just to take the damn thing off even though that definitely backfired on me in my story LOL.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-R_I381TbM (Potty Emergency)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-eUFMGBtCc (Animaniacs PottyEmergency!!!)
-http://www.knicker-wetting.net/ineed2peehost/kenna-desperate/index.html (woman desperate then peeing.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otrWld-tgq4 (Long pee, loud.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hGqx7SeAIi8 (Hot Girls Best PEE Vines - Pee desperate Girls)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4da8PelglcM (Potty Parity in India)
-http://shoppingandflying.blogspot.com/2008/11/fresh-restroom-design-solutions.html (The American Restroom Association discusses some prominent public restroom design issues including waiting in long lines for an open stall. Their philosophy is: “no matter what their configuration, public restrooms portals should be designed with sufficient width to accommodate peak times when users may be waiting in line. People exiting the restroom should not have to jockey their way through or collide with people waiting to enter the restroom.” The American Restroom Association suggests that a labyrinth style entrance and exit into a restroom solves the formation of long lines and more. The labyrinth design reduces the risk of hitting someone with a swinging door, prevents criminal activity since there really is no “doorway”, and allows people to wrap around it when lines form. DFW’s useful manual mentions a similar alternative: “Guideline Entries to the men’s and women’s rooms should not have doors, but switch-back or ‘T’ access halls, that are wide enough for two people to pass. The ‘T’ access is preferred for rooms with larger number of fixtures due to the improved circulation.”)
-http://www.chicagotribune.com/news/ct-union-station-more-fixes-met-20141212-story.html (Union Station's restroom scarcity tops complaints spurred by report.)
-https://www.yelp.com/biz/ferrante-winery-and-ristorante-geneva (I will NEVER come here again. I will NEVER buy their wine again. I cannot comment on food but I can comment on service. I missed the opportunity to order because I was in line for the restroom for 30 MINUTES. The line was starting to trickle into the actual restaurant. I find it very hard to believe that there are only 3 stalls for the ladies restrooms for an establishment that seats at least 200 people.

Mind you, only 1 stall worked when we were in the restaurant. The line was trailing into the restaurant when I entered it. The owner approached me because I had complained about the situation and how I could not understand that they could not get someone out there to fix it on a Saturday. She was more concerned that I dropped an "f bomb" in front of her associates rather than addressing how she is addressing the problem (I will admit I said it once because I was enraged). She was more concerned with the reputation of the restaurant than she was with addressing the problem at hand with ALL female customers on this night. I was not the only one waiting 30 minutes plus to use a toilet.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WXlw-CctOE (Girl Pooping Girl Pee Vine Pandemic - It's On!)
-http://hdwetting.com/free-videos/ (Free peeing videos.)
-https://eroshare.com/hxckodjt (Really desperate woman wetting herself.)
-https://vk.com/id205986464?z=video339730964_456239023 (Woman holds her morning pee for 20 min.!)
-https://twitter.com/holdit4me (Desperation twitter.)
-http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=285547976 (Woman wetting herself using vibrator.)
-http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=435226289 (Lucky German girl being tickle tortured!)
-http://hdwetting.com/free-videos/free-video-tied-and-tickled/ (Lucky girl being tickle tortured til she pees herself!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9I6RUSQ-Eq4 (Long restroom line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYbeCiOOpYI (Russian people singing in bathroom line)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7U9P4Qxs3kc (Woman in the porta potty joke)
-http://whisper.sh/stories/25b9b110-56a2-4cf7-a7c8-0d0f3eca19b9/Women-With-Large-Breasts-Confess-What-Its-Really-Like-To-Have-Them?llid=gJwrn&utm_source=source%3BFacebook_IM&utm_medium=post%3BIM&utm_campaign=InNe%3BLqSo&utm_content=9jko (Big boob confessions.)
-https://eroshare.com/wd79tc6c (Woman peeing on toilet.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C4_3rLzOfXw (Who Spends the Most Time on the Toilet?)
-http://motherless.com/CF2E3AC (Girl peeing bad.)
-http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph55c5cfef004f2 (Women desperate and peeing.)
PS-I'm also trying to post this thing that I found from Weekly World News about a church where everyone was naked as I remember that from way back in September 1999! I think the reason why I remembered it all of these years was because it was one of my very first exposures to any type of nudity, even if it was a censored kind.

The Locked Door Horror!
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I was chatting with one of my friends online last night and she made me realize that I haven't updated my blog in two months. The main reason is that once again I live a pretty boring life where I barely go anywhere so I don't really have all that much stories to share, even though I have a vivid imagination and I could probably write a lot more fictional stuff for here. But I know that there are a lot of people who really preferred the true stories to my wild fantasy ones.
Unfortunately as usual I have been sick a lot lately since the last time I updated so I haven't really had the greatest couple of months. But that's pretty much always true because my acid reflux usually puts me in the hospital every 6 to 8 weeks on average, but this time I relapsed after only two weeks. So I haven't really been doing all that much lately and as such not really too much new to share.
I did however have one interesting sighting, although it's probably nothing particularly exciting. Last Tuesday when I was at the movies I ended up encountering a somewhat significant line, nothing outrageous, but a bit of a wait. Usually when I go to the movies the theater is completely empty and I am the only one in the theater, but this time I went to the theater and it was actually pretty full and had a predominantly female audience, so when the movie was over and everyone piled out there was a stampede towards the ladies room as is always the case when a movie ends like that. I had to pee, but I wasn't quite bursting, but of course I definitely had to go!
I think I have mentioned this before, but there were only three stalls in the ladies room at this particular movie theater and one of them for longest time has had a broken lock on the door, so most people don't use it and they never seem to fix it, which means generally speaking there are only two stalls. But today when we I got there it turned out one of the other toilets was out of order completely. So that left one stall along with the stall with the broken lock, and since everyone avoids the broken lock one, that meant there was only one stall. That may not seem like a huge catastrophe, except there were eight women ahead of me in line! I didn't see any really obvious signs of desperation, but the woman in front of me clearly was annoyed. You just tell from her body posture that she was sort of shifting around. Again I don't think she was shifting out of desperation (although she might have been to some degree) but more out of annoyance, sort of like where you tap your foot and move around out of aggravation and sheer impatience. So the line probably ended up being like 15 min. long or something like that. I wasn't checking my watch or anything, I am just estimating. So that was a little bit of a thrill I suppose, but that's pretty much the only sighting I have had recently.
I did find something interesting online that I think I remember from over 20 years ago. I have mentioned my involuntary nudity fantasy scenario on here before where 1% of women are forced to go naked all the time. I managed to find the story online that I think first gave me that idea over 20 years ago. I found the archive available on Google of the magazine weekly world news. After looking through the archives I found in the October 21, 1997 issue the story of someone named Leeza Murth, a woman who was forced to live alone on a desert island because she had a severe allergy to all forms of clothing and fabric but was too shy and modest to join a nudist colony. I remember when I read that over 20 years ago the story of electrified my mind and I think it was one of my first stirrings of any type of sexual interest whatsoever.
Now at that age I was only a teenager so I didn't quite realize that weekly world news was a tabloid newspaper, so I thought that story might have been true and I think that that gave me lots of nightmare/fantasies of thinking – oh my God, what if I catch that disease! Being the really shy girl that I was and being that I was just starting to grow my breasts and go through puberty at the exact same time as I read that you can see how that would really have a major impact on me. So if you Google weekly world news with her name and that date you should be able to find it. I managed to make a picture file of it so maybe I can actually post that on here as an attachment or something. But if it doesn't work just Google that and you should be able to find it easily.
I am pretty sure that I have mentioned this before, I think back and June of 2012 specifically, looking through my document pad where I keep all my blog updates, but back in high school and elementary school we had a very sexist and frustrating bathroom policy and I thought maybe I would write a fictional story inspired by a real experience based on that.
Just a quick recap in case I haven't mentioned it in full. Back in high school I would always go to the bathroom between every single class if possible, or at least I would TRY to visit the bathroom between every single class as a precaution. I was glad about that in high school because now I would have the opportunity to go to the bathroom between every 45 min. class, or so I thought at least. Of course often in the bathroom were people or there would be a line so I would just skip it and hope for better luck next period as I was fanatically paranoid about making sure that I was always to class on time. Luckily it was not normally a problem because even if there was a line usually after a couple of periods I would be able to get to the bathroom before I got really desperate or anything like that.
This all changed for the disastrous worse in 11th grade. That was the year they found drugs and alcohol being hidden in the girls restroom. So what does the school do? They end up closing the girls bathroom everywhere except on the first floor. And I should really put this into perspective. This was a school of 1500 students (so assume about 750 girls) and that meant that there was one girls bathroom for the entire school with only five stalls. That's five stalls for 750 girls and we only had 4 min. between classes! It was completely and utterly ridiculous. I guess their policy was to punish everyone for the actions of a few. But as a result of that the only bathroom that was open was the one on the first floor by the nurse's office that I pretty much seldom ever went by on the way to class, it wasn't really on the way so to speak. I mostly used the bathrooms on the second or third floor near where most of the classes were.
So this was obviously very annoying for me! I was used to trying to go to the bathroom between every single class if possible because I would normally pass at least one of the three bathrooms. But now with the only one open being the one by the nurse's office this greatly inconvenienced me. I wasn't going to risk being late to class so annoyingly whenever I would go between classes I would find that the girls bathrooms on the second and third floor were completely locked. As a result of that pretty much the only time I got to go to the bathroom was if I was on the first floor and going through that hallway, or at lunch time where they don't take attendance and you can arrive whatever the hell you want so it doesn't matter if I end up spending 10 or 20 min. waiting to use the God damn bathroom, which I very often did!
But that wasn't the most frustrating thing, and again I think this goes to the reason why I have such a focus and fixation on the unfairness between men versus women using the bathroom and how much of a disadvantage it is to women. Remember I said that they found drugs and alcohol in the girls bathroom, they didn't find it in the boys bathroom, which meant the boys bathrooms on all three floors were completely open. And the boys bathroom each had two or three stalls plus like seven or eight urinals, meaning 10 places to pee per restroom. That means in the entire school the boys had about 30 places to relieve themselves while the girls had five. That means they had six times as many places to go!
My friends of course thought this was hilarious because they would always joke about how I had such a small bladder and would always be trying to go to the bathroom between every class. Now every time when we were walking to class they would be able to go into the boys room and I would push on the girls room door and it wouldn't open and I would get really frustrated and be cursing at it. I don't think that they shared my fetish because I told them about it years later and at that time I didn't really quite have it yet myself, but I think that this led to the development of that to some degree. So I think that they got a real kick out of watching me kick that door and not be able to use the bathroom until lunchtime.
So now that I have covered that as a background I thought that a good thing to do for October, being a horror novelist, was to write a true horror story about this experience in high school. So I hope you will enjoy the following which I call The Locked Door Horror! Because let's face it, when you are desperate for a pee the greatest horror in the world is to find the ladies room locked! I have changed all the names of the characters in the story to protect everyone's identities. This story is fiction. Although it is very loosely based on the situation in my school nothing as dramatic as this really happened. I am taking a lot of creative license here, but I hope you will enjoy, because that allows me to make it much more dramatic and interesting than it actually was!
The Locked Door Horror
"Damn I have to pee," I said as I waited for the bell to ring.
"You always have to pee between every single class," said Jake, my close friend.
"I haven't gone in a couple of periods now and my bladder is getting rather full," I said. "Besides I don't go between every class, sometimes there's a line, I just have to take precautions because I might not get in every single time. And then last period I went to use the ladies room and it was locked."
"Attention all students," came the voice on the announcements. "It has come to our attention that several girls have been hiding drugs and alcohol in the girls restroom. This simply will not be tolerated. Unfortunately because of a few bad apples we will have to take measures that are going to negatively affect everyone. From now on the only girls bathroom that will be open will be the one on the first floor near the nurse's office where we can keep an eye on everything. We are sorry that we have to take such drastic measures but hopefully this will teach everyone a lesson about the proper use of the restroom."
"This sucks!" I said. "I hardly ever pass by that bathroom."
"That does suck for you Jill," said Jake.
"It's not fair though, they didn't lock the men's room!"
"Yeah but they didn't find drugs in the boys restroom."
"This is like totally sexist."
That was when the bell rung. I darted out of the class with my friend Jake following fast behind me. I approached the ladies room door and I pushed on it only to find that it was locked. "Dammit!" I shouted as I pushed on it hoping that maybe it would open.
"Sucks for you," said Jake as he opened the boys room and went inside.
"Fuck," I muttered under my breath as I went down the stairs to the second floor. I saw the other ladies room and I was praying that it would be open. I pushed on the door but once again it was locked. "God dammit!" I shouted as I gritted my teeth. "There's no way I would have time to go to the first floor so I guess I'm just going to have to wait until lunch next period."
I quickly ran into my next class, science.
The teacher came up to the blackboard. "Today class we are going to be learning about water displacement. Now we will do a demonstration."
The teacher opened up a tank and took out a big bottle filled with water and started swishing it around. I could hear other girls in the classroom wincing as I crossed my legs tightly and tried to focus on the lesson without focusing on it too much!
"You see when you swirl the water around like this," said the teacher as she spun the bottle around creating a funnel inside of it, "you create a funnel. And that if we pour the water into this tank you will see the water is displaced when I pour it into there."
As the teacher slowly poured the water into the tank I noticed that the girl in front of me, Marissa, was tapping her legs like crazy and finally she put her hand up.
"Yes Marissa?" the teacher said as she pointed to her.
"Can I please go to the ladies room?!"
"I'm sorry but rules are that you are supposed to go between class."
"But the ladies room was locked!"
"The one on the first floor is open, you will just have to use that one."
"But it's not near any of my classes!"
"I'm sorry Marissa, but you will just have to find time to go to the bathroom between classes on your own time."
As I sat there watching Marissa crossing her legs it was beginning to drive me crazy because I had to pee just as bad! I could see some of the other girls in the classroom showing the telltale signs of feet shifting and tapping. The boys did not look to be too uncomfortable though, bastards!
Finally the bell rung and class was over. Now it was finally time for lunch and I didn't have to get there in any set amount of time. As fast as my trembling legs would carry me I gathered up my books and began stampeding down to the first floor, down several snaking hallways and finally it was there, my salvation, the girls bathroom on the first floor across from the nurse's station.
"Finally, I've been holding this in all day!" I shouted as I ran into the ladies room before stopping short. There were probably at least 20 girls in there waiting for the five stalls, most of them shifting their legs and doing the telltale pee dance.
"Do any of you mind if I cut?" I asked.
"Yes we do!" several voices came at once and I took my place on line.
The next 10 or 15 min. passed by very slowly as I stood there dancing from foot to foot. Finally a stall opened and I practically knocked down the other girl, pulled down my panties and slammed my ass on the seat and exploded into the toilet. "Oh my God!" I shouted as I finally let loose with a powerful stream of urine. "This feels real good."
Finally I finished up, wiped myself and the next desperate girl practically pushed me down like I had the girl before me just to get into the toilet. After washing my hands I looked back at the restroom with a sense of dread knowing that that would be the only time that day I would go to the bathroom, so I had better make it last.
"Where were you Jill?" Jake asked as I came into the cafeteria.
"There was a line!"
Jake laughed. "That's why it's nice to have a penis."
I stuck my tongue out and sat down at the table and the only thought that I could think of was that please God let there be drugs and alcohol found in the men's room tomorrow!
That's where the story ends. As it turns out that eventually did happen, but not until the next year when drugs were found in the boys restroom as well (and sadly since I have left that school I have heard that they have developed a severe drug and alcohol problem there). But even with only one restroom open they still had twice as many places to pee as we did. Fortunately my last year of college I had a really short day that was only three or four hours long and every other day I had gym, and the gym also had a bathroom that I could use. But those last few years they were pretty frustrating, and I think that they contributed to my fascination with female desperation and what it is like to have a desperately full bladder. So I guess it wasn't all bad!
That's all for now. As usual I have no idea when I will update again because my life is not very interesting, but I will try to update more frequently. If I don't have any new true stories to share, I will use my fertile imagination to try and think of some more fiction to update with.
And as always I end with all the links I have accumulated since my last update.
-http://not-your-cute-little-asian-girl.tumblr.com/archive (Asian girl tumbler)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NUHeSTDv_24 (Victorian realities - how did they use the toilet??!)
-http://pissedmypantiesworld.tumblr.com/ (PIssing panties tumbler.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEI_nvzlGTY (Poop Hack - When You Just Can't Hold It In.)
-https://vimeo.com/81903570 (Nude woman rollerblading and covering herself up for the American flag. Now that's patriotic!)
-https://sites.google.com/site/autobanden/home (Good female desperation pictures.)
-https://stickyegg.com/tag/ladies-room-line/ (The great equalizer as even celebrities have to wait in the ladies room line!)
-http://mangozeen.blogspot.com/2015/12/long-lines.html (Women suffer at public bathrooms. Their clothing restrains a quick entry and exit as much as the fact that most women's bathroom are designed for two or three stalls at max. I've always been astounded by the length of the queues before the lady's room, but the men's room isn't much better when men drink beer.
Two much beer and the lines can contipede out of control.
At least we don't have to wash our hands.)
-http://boingboing.net/2016/05/25/in-line-at-the-ladies-room-i.html (Satire on transphobia.)
-https://strictlystine.com/tag/comic/page/2/ (Line Language.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-0-p0GysiY (Women Vs. Men's restroom lines)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MJSS2QWydY (Why Men & Women Use Separate Bathrooms)
-http://kirida.com/2014/08/jay-z-and-beyonce-on-the-run-tour-in-seattle/ (he brewery across the street had the longest line to the ladies room. The girls behind me were strategizing with each other, “Are you going to pee or just look at the mirror?!” And there was no soap so I offered some of these young ladies hand sanitizer and another one my Tide to Go pen when she noticed a stain because even in the coolest place on earth, I am the mommest mom ever to mom it up. Luckily, my highwaisted jeans have big pockets for all the supplies I’ll need. Gather around girls, no one is getting any germs when I’m here!)
-http://traveledearth.com/2012/07/19/vienna-city-of-music/ (Thanks for a wonderful free weekend of music, Vienna. We really, really enjoyed it. Though you may want to consider upgrading your washroom facilities on the island. There were something like 1.8 million people in attendance at the music festival over the weekend, and almost no washrooms. On top of that, the washrooms all charged an entrance fee. Of course this was no problem for me, I just walked into the bush and took a leak with 50 other guys. Ashley, however, waited in line with the other ladies for 25 minutes and had to pay 0.50€. In the future, Vienna, if you are going to have a huge music festival, put out some free porta-potties please.)
-http://tosh.cc.com/blog/2015/09/09/no-time-for-a-line (Woman in men's room.)
-https://iarethefoodsnob.wordpress.com/2012/06/ (I turned away to use the ladies room…and was impressed with the way the staff handled the lines. when the Ladies room line got too long, they took half of the ladies off the line and put them ahead of the men on line. Not to worry, there were individual restrooms. And the lines moved uber quickly. )
-https://lifeafterdawn.com/ (On a recent family road trip, I dared to be “that woman” who refused to wait on the line to the ladies room! It’s a lesson for my kids about meeting individual needs.)
-http://turfluck.blogspot.com/2007_06_01_archive.html (Crist is right that it was smaller crowds made the day more enjoyable for those at the track. But even with the "lowest attendance in a decade," there was one line that took forever: Yup. That's the line for the ladies' room. Keep in mind that this is outside the ladies room. There are at least a dozen more women in line inside. Keep in mind there's a line of the same length at the other entrance to this restroom. If Crist thinks "cargo-style" train travel will discourage visitors, what do you think cargo-style restrooms will do?

While I hesitate to call this sexism, as Belmont is an old facility, the lack of adequate facilities for women does seem a mite short-sighted. If racing were serious about attracting female fans, it seems to me that they'd change a few signs on a few men's rooms for the day. But as Railbird recently pointed out, racing doesn't do a very good job at recognizing women in the industry or the stands.

Strangely, this sort of thing is apparently not a problem for casinos, as hard-core slots players have ways of dealing with this issue.)
-https://shellysretirementadventure.com/2015/07/27/waiting-for-cymbeline-shakespeare-in-the-park/ (The performance was splendid and the concept refreshing and funny with plenty of music and dance. The only problem was a certain line during intermission so go before you sit down and if you need the ladies (and the men’s also by the way) room again, tear out of there and prepare to race back to your seats as they only break for 15 minutes.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qgGhVMj4FO8 (Draw-The-Line - Bathroom Panic)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GfoF6HymStY (Girl very desperate - absolutely bursting to pee on the phone)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsqsOf3-b7Q (Do you need to pee?)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6sindH_gN2Q (She is locked out and very desperate to pee.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=20wsFNyards (A girl is desperate to pee whilst waiting for an ultrasound. You can see her bulge and shivering. This is why ultrasounds can get really uncomfortable)
-https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B661IffOoiSBMUpVLWdSX3Axczg/view (Car desperation.)
-https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B661IffOoiSBeUZYSHotZmtUZ0k/view (13 minutes of car desperation.)
-https://twitter.com/lovesQ4loo (Desperation and bathroom lines twitter page.)
-http://www.gettyimages.at/detail/video/long-queues-at-the-portable-toilets-at-the-firework-stock-filmmaterial/105456096 (restroom line in Japan.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOkF_Hy4brc&feature=youtu.be (Oktoberfest 2010 Schlange am Damen-WC )
-http://reallydesperate2016.tumblr.com/ (Desperation blog)

Some Sightings, Old and New, Magic Show and Some Social Experiments
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I haven't updated my blog again for a while but that's pretty much always the case I suppose since I live a pretty boring life in general. And unfortunately for most of July I was really sick with my acid reflux acting up again and I never really enjoy any of my fetish related activities when I am sick. Plus I don't really go anywhere where I am likely to encounter any type of desperation or anything else interesting when I am sick or recovering. But I have accumulated a couple of sightings in the two months since I last updated and I have a good idea for a new fictional story, but I am not going to be able to get around to that tonight so I will have to save that for another time.
The first thing that happened is something that is sort of a follow-up on what I mentioned last time about the flooded ladies room. Ironically just a few days (or the day after actually) after writing that post I encountered a similar situation at another place, making that two times within like the same week! What happened was that I went to the bookstore and as usual pretty much everywhere I go I will eventually have to use the bathroom. And I am like one of those people who spends like two hours in the bookstore at a time since I only go like once a month. So naturally I would have to go to the bathroom at some point.
So I go to the bathroom and it looks like all is well, but then I get in there and the floor is all wet. In spite of the fact that the floor was wet it wasn't completely soaked so I decided I would try to make my way to the toilets. One toilet was completely locked up with like plastic on the door or something, but the other one, the handicapped stall, was open. But then I go to use it and sitting there in the toilet itself is one of those signs that they put outside of the bathroom says that the bathrooms being cleaned or whatever or that the floor is slippery. But that cone or whatever it was was sticking up right in the toilet bowl! Somehow I think that someone might have done that as a joke because I doubt that the people cleaning the bathroom were stupid enough to put the cone in the toilet itself, then again... But that was something pretty weird and I had never seen that before.
I have to admit that I actually did think that maybe I could squat over it but it was totally obstructing any way of squatting over the toilet and I didn't want to get pee on myself. I wasn't quite bursting or desperate or anything so I just left the bathroom without peeing. By the time I was waiting on line to ring up my purchase though I was sort of on tip toes and sort of raising myself on my knees if you know what I mean. After that I went out to eat and luckily the restaurant bathroom was working because otherwise that would have been a real long wait!
The next incident I had was kind of embarrassing and took place in July. I had just gotten out of the hospital like the day before, and after I get out of the hospital and I start drinking and trying to eat again normally I always end up unfortunately having like a ton of diarrhea. But in spite of that I was feeling fine otherwise so I went to go see the new Ghostbusters movie. But I guess I was stupid because I decided to get popcorn even though I hadn't eaten anything yet and it was my first actual food since getting out of the hospital. I figured that popcorn was something good to start with and it wouldn't bother my stomach, but I was wrong! Like probably an hour or so into the movie I start getting really bad gas pains and I am feeling really uncomfortable and I know that there is no getting around it, I was going to have to go to the bathroom. I will not get up during a movie to go to the bathroom short of an emergency, but this was pretty much an emergency.
So I pretty much ran upstairs to the bathroom with a time bomb in my ass! Fortunately when I ran into the bathroom there was no one else in there at the time. But then just as I was going into the stall I hear this crowd getting out from another movie, like a kid's movie or something. So now there I am sitting on the toilet and just as I hear people coming into the bathroom and waiting outside of my stall I start totally exploding! You know when you have diarrhea and it just like gushes out like a machine gun, that was pretty much me! So for the next few minutes I was sitting there filling the bowl up where everyone could hear what was going on. It was really humiliating but I knew that there was really nothing I could do about it. I thought about waiting until everyone had left the bathroom but I wanted to get back to my movie and figured that I was holding up the line. When I came out I got a couple of looks and smirks and felt really humiliated but it was kind of funny now that I look back on it.
Unfortunately because of my stomach problems stuff like this is increasingly common for me. It almost makes me think of my scenario every time it happens. I am getting more used to it but it still embarrassing every single time that it happens. The unfortunate thing is that when I am recovering from illness as soon as I start eating and drinking again usually I have this problem for several days. Since I spend most of my time at home it's usually not a problem, but a couple of times I will go to the movies and I will end up trying to eat something or drink something that I will end up spontaneously having to run to the bathroom like that.
But moving on to my next sighting. It was at the beginning of August when I went to see the movie Lights out. Even though when I go to see horror movies I am usually the only one in the theater, in the summertime it's definitely a lot more crowded, so sometimes the theaters will all get out at the same time. It seemed like there were a lot of people in the theater with me so maybe another theater got out right before, but by the time I got out of the movies the line to ladies room was out the door. I would estimate that there were about eight women in line in front of me for a total of three stalls, but one of which still has no lock on it, so more like two. I didn't see anyone clearly or visibly desperate but the woman in front of me you could see was clearly annoyed because she looked at the line, put her hand on her cheek and made a real big sighing noise. That may not seem like anything to significant but I think I have mentioned here before that I like when I see people get annoyed by their desperation like that or having to wait, so I was quite pleased seeing her have to wait like that, even though she got to go to the bathroom before I did! She peed pretty loudly and definitely had to go.
Just last week now though I had an interesting sighting, in fact two in one day. This Tuesday I went to see Sausage Party (totally freaking hilarious btw, totally my type of sick twisted juvenile humor) and when I was going to the bathroom afterwards one of the women in front of me was shouting that she had to pee really bad to her friend. So I slowed up and made sure to let her get to the bathroom before me. So that was entertaining even though she didn't sound like she had to pee as bad as she said she did. But maybe she just has a small bladder, not all that unlike yours truly!
But then after that I went to the Wendy's across the street from the movies to get something to eat and the cashier who was taking everyone's order was this really attractive Asian woman with this long ponytail. She seemed like she was rather agitated and was taking all of the orders like superfast. Then I heard her ask her supervisor or manager or whoever if she could leave for a bathroom break, and the great thing is their manager said no! Beyond that she didn't really show any signs of really crossing her legs or being super desperate, but you could tell she was moving really fast like she was rushing to get everyone out of there so she could go to the bathroom. I am going to sound like a total bitch for this, but I was kind of thinking that maybe I should have gone to the bathroom and come back just to taunt her, but I thought that was stupid because I was waiting on line to get my food and I just went to the bathroom a few minutes before at the movie theater. But I thought about it! But seeing an Asian woman desperate, that is truly a red letter day worthy of notation!
All of this kind of got my pervy mind thinking now, just how many other people really delighted in knowing that others are desperate like that or who actually imagine others that they see in public desperate. Even before I noticed that Asian woman there was this other really attractive girl in front of me in line with these really great legs and wearing these jean shorts and I was just thinking to myself "omg I would love to see her desperate in line for the toilet!" And as I was thinking of that another thought occurred to me, maybe when I am waiting in line for the bathroom other women look at me and I thinking "I wonder how bad that girl has to pee!"
Which again is why I think that the bathroom line is probably the best place to be. Even if people aren't showing signs of desperation you are basically looking at people you know have to go to the bathroom bad enough that they are waiting. So everyone who's looking at you in line, even if they aren't excited as I would be, know "this girl has to go!" And I have to admit that thought kind of tickles my fancy so to speak :D. So I suspect that there are a lot more people out there who get a little bit of a kick out of this, even if they don't have the fetish. But I will talk more about that later because I have another thing to bring up.
The last thing I want to mention is a really old experience, like from 21 years ago! I thought that I had probably mentioned this in my blog before but looking through the document where I keep all of these entries I word searched and couldn't find it, so I guess I have never mentioned it before. I remembered it recently because it came up in a chat I had with someone.
This took place back when I was like 12 years old or something like that in the summer of 1995. I was sleeping over my cousins' house and we went to this outdoor magic show. I barely remember anything about it except for the song "La Isla Bonita" was playing and I really liked that song and I remembered it for like 20 years without having any idea what it was called. So I don't really remember all that much about the magic show itself, but I do remember what happened after the magic show!
So while I was there with my cousins and everything they were eating like all of this hot spicy food and it was a pretty crowded place. But we brought like a lot of liquids with us and of course I as usual was like guzzling them down, so by the time the magic show was letting out I had to pee, and I had to pee bad! But like with a lot of outdoor events there wasn't any real accommodation made for the fact that people would need the bathroom and this place was especially bad even by most standards.
There were no porta potties or anything like that. This was just outside where people brought blankets and lawn chairs to watch the show and there were probably a couple of hundred people there or something like that. But there were no actual bathrooms provided except for the one bathroom that they have in the Park, which had like two stalls in the ladies room, not sure how many they have in the men's room, but I am sure with urinals they got more.
So the show lets out and everyone basically charges towards the bathrooms, and of course the line was truly astonishing. I don't remember exactly how long it was but it was like snaking so far that I couldn't see the beginning of the line from the end of it. I think when I saw it I actually grabbed myself and pressed my knees together! The men's room line of course moved really fast and my cousins were finished in no time flat, but I was probably waiting for at least a half-hour. Again this was over 20 years ago so I don't remember super clearly, I just remember having to pee really bad and having a line extremely long and people were constantly bumping into you and it was just a very crowded space overall, with the men's and ladies lines right next to each other so you can really see the contrast in a rubbing it in your face kind of way that your line was longer.
And then when I finally did get to the toilets they were, shall we say, less than spectacular. I mean these were like bathrooms where there were tons of graffiti all over the place and the door was made of wood with cracks in it and you could barely move inside the bathroom itself, so people had to basically push through crowds to get in and out of the bathroom. And then the toilets themselves were pretty much clogged and not flushing, but I wasn't going to wait all that time without peeing, so I just grinned and bore it.
All of this brings up another topic that I have probably mentioned before, so I am not going to spend too much time on it. But if you ever notice how when the toilets are out of order it's much more likely to be in the ladies room? I mean I can recall numerous occasions where I have seen the ladies room out of order but I can't really ever recall seeing an out of order sign on the men's room. Again I am not usually looking for signs of the men's room since I don't use it, but I would probably have noticed it all those times when the ladies room was out of order.
I kind of have a theory about why this might be the case though. I think firstly it's because the women's room only has toilets and not urinals, and that usually means there are fewer toilets. So you also have to figure that if the toilet gets clogged it's taken out of commission. You also have to figure that if the restroom becomes flooded like it did on those other occasions I mentioned recently, that puts the whole bathroom out of commission. The men's room urinals would probably still be usable even if the toilets weren't, and once again that just gives you more options of places to go. But the ladies room has one problem and they close the entire thing. I don't want to be a conspiracy theorist either, but I also suspect that men's rooms probably get fixed sooner. Again I can't really prove any of that, but when I do see the frequency with which the ladies room is out of order compared to the men's I can't help but think it's another example of thinking "well, I guess the women can wait."
I actually found an entry I wrote in my journal about this earlier in the month when I was talking about it: "This got us into a discussion about how I felt the ladies room was clogged more often or out of order more often than the men's room and someone in chat thought that the ladies clog them where the guys hardly ever use toilet paper. I thought that that was very plausible and I thought that it was because the men's room they might just close down one of the stalls but leave the urinals freely available. In the ladies room you might have one or two stalls and if they get clogged up they would just close the bathroom. And women also put more toilet paper and sanitary products in the toilet even though you aren't supposed to. And although I don't have any real hard data to support me I suspect that just because women have to sit down they end up having to take a dump more, and that ends up clogging the toilets. It's my conspiracy theory of the week! And you certainly don't want to let anyone else know that you were the one who did the deed! What is bad is when the toilet is already clogged and you use it anyway and then the person who uses it after you thinks that you were the one who clogged it in the first place!"
The next thing that I was going to talk about is just a really brief comment. I was just thinking that there is probably a lot of good desperation at the Olympics, and wouldn't it be the most awesome place for my poop desperation scenario to occur? I mean all of those people and suddenly and unexpectedly 5% of the women all have to take a huge dump at the same time! Imagine all those athletes training and now all the sudden they have to deal with having to take a crap constantly while everyone in the world is watching them. It would be pure chaos! I am so evil.
I have also been chatting (and holding!) a lot recently with some of my desperate friends online and one of my friends had the most awesome experience. I was chatting with her and she was using her phone to use her messenger because she was out in public and was desperate to pee and there were no toilets around. I suggested that she go up to someone showing all these visible signs of desperation and say how badly that she has to go and see what their response was. She said that this woman eventually seemed to be taking a lot of interest in her predicament and offered to go back to her house to use her bathroom. After a 15 min. walk there the woman offered her drinks before telling her where the bathroom was! I just thought that was totally awesome and it shows that there are more people out there who might be interested if you show some visible desperation. I think most people just don't even realize how interesting and exciting it could be, so I thought it would be an interesting type of social experiment to see people go up to people like that really showing very obvious signs of desperation and saying how badly you have to go and see how they respond.
One final thing is that I thought of yet another social experiment along those lines. I was chatting with someone about how the bathroom line is not very egalitarian. Because it's first come first serve and not based on how badly you have to go. If a person who has to go only a little bit, and if they are ahead of you in line, still gets to go to the bathroom before you. Of course with groups of friends sometimes you can work out this thing but then you would also have to admit that you are desperate out of your mind! But this all inspired a great idea for a cool social experiment (I like the psychology behind desperation a real lot, if you haven't noticed already). This one is a little bit inspired by my school bus story with the 60 boys and 60 girls as well as my Washington DC bus trip, which I know I have mentioned here before.
What I thought of was basically you have two groups of women, maybe 30 women in each group. The first group gets a bathroom break at the two-hour point and then another one at the end for four hours total, so they get a bathroom break halfway through the four hours. The second group has to wait till the end of four hours before getting to go to the bathroom even the first time, and they are given free drinks! And here's the thing, they let the group out who already got to go to the bathroom 10 min. before the group that hasn't gone in four hours. The idea is that you have 60 women in line for the bathroom and the first 30 don't have to go nearly as bad as the ones behind them! Then you observe both groups of women in the line and see if they are behaving differently. I guess the point of the experiment would be to try to see if the woman at the back of the line would start asking the woman at the front if they could cut and seeing if the women at the front of the line would let them!
The woman I had told this to said that she has let people in front of her before but she wasn't sure about 30 people. In all honesty unless I was on the absolute verge of an accident I would probably just wait for the 60 people in front of me even though I would be going out of my mind. She pointed out that I could be 60th in line but I can also be 31st or somewhere in between.
A similar idea I had was where you have a busload of people where each person picks a card and half of the people get that you can go to the bathroom whenever you want card, and the other ones get a hold the entire trip card. Then it will be interesting to see how they interact. And the thing I was thinking was that each person with a pee whenever you want card is teamed up with a person or a buddy who has that can't pee at all card!
One last thing that I was going to say was that in my poop desperation scenario would start pooping have to poop just as much regardless of how much they eat, whereas the non-pooping women can eat all they want without ever having to poop! I think that that would be extremely frustrating as well, especially since I hate having to get up to go to the bathroom when I am eating!
This is getting pretty long now and I think that there is a limit to how many words you can put in a single entry here, so I think I should probably end it now because it's also getting late, but hopefully I will update soon with my latest fictional story idea once I get around to writing it.
In the meantime here are all the links that I have built up in the last two months since I last updated. From what everyone who has read my blog has told me they are their favorite part of my blog, so enjoy!
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x48tfwn_long-ladies-bathroom-line-mt-olympus-8-22-15_animals (Really long line.)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4hhaz5_enf-public-pool_fun (ENF - Public Pool)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4hh4ji_enf-teacher-caught-in-school_fun (ENF teacher caught in school)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4hh8mh_funny-friends-enf-compilation-2016_fun (Funny Friends ENF Compilation)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x4hh4fp_girl-l-enf_fun (Girl l ENF)
-http://thenursepath.com/2014/03/08/nurses-could-your-bladder-really-explode-if-you-are-too-busy-to-go-pee/ (Yeah you are less likely to cause their bladder to rupture and explode, even if we can't seem to hold as long LOL.)
-http://www.popsci.com/science/article/2012-05/fyi-can-bladder-actually-burst (I think that is why you should never take desperation too far.)
-https://www.theguardian.com/society/2007/nov/20/drugsandalcohol.health (Men and women have different plumbing, and this, along with the fact that until now women have tended to drink much less than men, explains why alcohol-related bladder rupture has historically been a male-only phenomenon. "Men have a longer urethra than women [the tube that urine travels down to get out via the normal route]," explains Dooldeniya. "You therefore need a lot more pressure to force the urine out of the bladder through the male urethra. "We previously thought that women were more likely to leak than to rupture because they have a shorter urethra than men, and therefore it is easier for the urine to be forced out by the pressure, rather than to rupture.")
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dg4_deyHLvQ (What Happens When You Hold Your Pee?)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BgsdhmLrLPA (Why Do We Have Butt Hair? LOL)
-http://www.askdoctork.com/can-holding-it-hurt-your-bladder-2011092786 (Not likely is the answer, mostly. That is why this must be done in moderation.)
-http://female-desperation.tumblr.com/archive (Desperation tumbler)
-http://www.topix.com/forum/city/pikeville-ky/T8GA78D7KKN1B411K (Do women really have hairy buttholes?? LOL)
-https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110315201350AA41iXH (More on butt hair LOL. For the record I have a small amount of butt hair and I personally find the whole idea of hair on your ass to be extremely gross!)
-http://jezebel.com/you-must-read-this-passionate-manifesto-on-womens-butt-1521551107 (Last one LOL. It does actually make good points though.)
-http://www.womenshealthandfitness.com.au/health-beauty/health-advice/1253-peeing-patterns-what-s-normal (I'm a bit abnormal, but then I guess anyone reading this blog has already noticed that by now!)
-http://www.notey.com/blogs/pee (Best peeing blogs.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4xg9lyEhP8 (Oprah pees for ten minutes.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1g7CENyMuA (Long Lines In The Womens Restrooms)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZRYBxn-wspM (Womens Bathroom Line at Belmont Stakes #ohCRAP)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MeOijrEhk-o (Foo Fighters Concert at Wrigley Field 08/29/2015 - Women's Bathroom Line)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ypudhAsR-Ug (Long line at the girls bathroom? (Day 299 - 12/1/15)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OEYJqgDzt60 (Ladies Toilet - How long does it take a woman to find a toilet in an Indian city?)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1FFBpTvLlo (India Matters: Toilet stories, an overview )
-http://epicsaholic.com/pics/1468/girls-nude-butt-contest.jpg (47 Nice hot asses!)
-http://hardcore.theporndujour.com/001/11.jpg (More ass)
-http://nupicsof.com/pics/4015/public-nude-girls-eating-pussy.jpg (self explanitory.)
-http://yallknowwhat.com/?p=5008 (Girl pees on news.)
-http://luv-that-ass.tumblr.com/archive (Ass!)
http://www.vice.com/read/bathroom-bitches/page/0 (Talking to Girls About the Good Ol' Number-Two Taboo)
-http://gawker.com/im-gonna-say-carlson-its-not-like-she-has-to-do-any-pr-484908436 (Newswomen afraid to poop! I would hope that in my scenario every single one of them would end up being poopers, even though odds are that only one, if any, would.)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Girl-in-black-about-to-explode (She really had to go!)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Dying-to-piss (Bursting in line)
-https://mic.com/articles/127665/peeing-skirt-lets-female-runners-pee-on-the-go#.2fD9B7sPI (Cool device to pee while running)
-http://evoke.ie/extra/9-daily-struggles-of-women-who-always-need-to-pee (I can relate!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tavYYp4aSxA (World's Longest Whizz)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vYZJ336ALhE (Woman needs to pee and person talks to them about all sorts of water related imagery and then the bathroom is locked. Really excellent!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BNjR8LfLmg (6 minute desperation)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHzc4kBYco8 (She Has To PEE @ Very Bad // Funny Desperate Girls)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CVdvm7g4ApQ (Pee Shy in the Office Bathroom)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C-Bb2l_ocD4 (All That- Good Burger "I have to pee" )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otrWld-tgq4 (Held this all in until I got home. I was bursting! )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AyBLP_yFmUI (Pants Wetting In The Supermarket)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5iHHOd3CVM (DOTTY GETS DESPERATE - Far Out Films (AU))
-http://www.theage.com.au/victoria/spiderbait-slam-creep-who-urinated-on-a-woman-at-their-gig-20160809-gqo7g3.html (Man pees on woman at concert.)
-http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5727874ecddb4 (Hour long pee video. I actually didn't get around to watching it yet but I'm putting it here so that I will have the link.)
-https://www.bladderandbowelfoundation.org/bladder/bladder-conditions-and-symptoms/frequency/ (I definitely pee more than average LOL.)
-https://www.sharecare.com/health/overactive-bladder/women-go-bathroom-often (Why do women have to go to the bathroom so often?)
-http://www.cracked.com/blog/7-female-behaviors-that-baffle-men-explained21/ (three of them are bathroom related!)
-https://www.quora.com/Why-do-girls-generally-have-to-pee-so-much-more-frequently-than-guys (All pretty good reasons.)
-http://www.glamour.com/story/why-do-girls-go-to-the-bathroo (One more.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHCnabXj6nQ&nohtml5=False (How To Poop Confidently In a Public Restroom.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DSNfC2EJhU (Flushing toilet.)
-http://www.enkivillage.com/how-to-make-yourself-pee.html (Practical advice!)
-http://www.wikihow.com/Be-Comfortable-Urinating-in-Front-of-People (More Practical advice!)
-http://tufffanfiction.wikia.com/wiki/Bathroom_Breakdown (Cute desperate story.)
-https://www.yahoo.com/news/what-happens-to-your-body-when-youre-too-busy-to-121712586.html (What Happens To Your Body When You’re Too Busy To Pee?)
-http://www.mamamia.com.au/when-is-it-ok-to-pee-in-front-of-other-people/ (THE BIG ISSUE: When is it OK to wee in front of others?)
-http://www.funnyordie.com/articles/83f91eb26e/why-did-it-take-hillary-so-long-to-pee-a-republican-investigation? _cc=__d___&_ccid=50080452-708f-4c60-b168-f3169410877b (LOL.)
-http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-3244419/Does-needing-pee-make-better-LIAR-bladders-enhance-ability-dupe- study-claims.html (Get desperate if you are going to lie!)
-http://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2015/10/feminists-pee-their-pants-for-gender-equality/ (WTF LOL. I don't think I would have fallen for that. I'm a hard-core feminist myself but it must be admitted that not all members of the movement are beyond being fooled by some really stupid stuff. It is still pretty amusing though, not gonna lie about that!)

The Bladder Test
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I decided I would try to update more here. I don't have that many interesting experiences that often since I rarely go anywhere, but I have thought that I would try to turn some of my experiences into actual stories when I am too fixated on my fetish to work on my more serious writing. So I decided to write a story based on that time I was desperate while taking a test for school. I posted about this back in June 2013, I think it was, and I will repost it now.

This is the experience that the story refers to. The story is very much dramatized and I think I made it more interesting in my account of it by adding details. I do remember that one of the questions on the final was about the Industrial Revolution, the essay portion, but at the time I probably didn't think to make the connection to bathrooms and the Einstein thing was just something I thought of while I was writing the story. So I made the whole thing more dramatic and exciting, because as a writer that is what I do, but it is based on a real experience and here is a reposting of what I originally posted.

"Another time we had a shorter social studies final. That one I think was only two hours or three hours. But the thing was that you could leave after a certain minimum amount of time. I was a really good student was able to finish it pretty quickly. I think that that social studies final or Regents or whatever that our teacher so played up turned out to be one of the easiest tests imaginable. Even the terrible students said that it was an easy test. So I was finished pretty quickly (I think I got like a 97 on it, not that I'm bragging or anything) but we were still not allowed to leave. Unfortunately, and I don't know why, but that they had to pee so freaking bad! I don't know if it was just, I just really have no idea why. But I had to go BAD! Unfortunately I was bursting and we weren't allowed to leave for at least 45 min. So we just kind of had to sit there. So let me put this into perspective for you – I had nothing to do for the next 45 min. to distract me from my aching bladder. Finally we were allowed to leave and I pretty much bolted. Much to my horror all of the bathrooms were locked! But fortunately I was like one block away from my house (the school is literally down the street) so I pretty much ran home and man was it good to pee!"

Now here is the story and I hope you enjoy it. Hopefully I will write more stories like this and if not hopefully I will have more desperate experiences in the near future. So far nothing new though since the last time I updated. Actually there was one funny thing, my last update was about how I encountered a flooded ladies room, and ironically the very next day after posting that update I encountered yet another one! It was while I was at the bookstore and I went to use the ladies room and the entire floor was flooded. I actually went into the stall to see if maybe it wasn't flooded and there was one of those signs that say closed for cleaning actually in the toilet bowl itself. Someone had taken the caution wet floor sign and they had actually stuck it in the toilet bowl, which was kind of ridiculous and hilarious to see, or would be if I didn't have to pee. I wasn't desperate or anything, and shortly after I went to a restaurant where I was able to use the bathroom without problem, but I did just think it was kind of hilarious that the night after posting a story about how I encountered that flooded ladies room I encountered another one. I mean what are the odds of that? Stuff like that doesn't happen too often and here I had it happen twice within a month.

But that's about all and I haven't had any really interesting experiences since then but maybe I will go to that movie theater again with my cousins and encounter something interesting. Right now don't have any specific plans though, but of course I will update if anything interesting does happen!

Now here is the story in its entirety and I hope you all enjoy.

The Bladder Test
I remember that it was the day of our social studies final, but I wasn't worried, social studies was one of the easiest subjects in the world. Of course this test counted for 25% of our grade, so it was no laughing matter. But I made sure to come prepared. I had my pens, pencils, and a big bottle of water to stay well hydrated because it was a super hot June day.
"Okay class we will now begin the first part of the test, the multiple-choice part," the instructor said as he came into the room.
That was when I noticed a tingle in my bladder, so I raised my hand.
"Yes," the teacher said as he pointed to me.
"Can I go to the bathroom before the test starts?"
"You should have gone before class."
"I will only be a minute, the bathroom is just down the hall."
"I am sorry but you will just have to wait."
Damn, why didn't I go to the bathroom before the test! Oh well, I wasn't quite desperate yet. Besides, this was social studies, one of the easiest subjects of all. The test might have been scheduled for three hours but I could probably finish in maybe an hour or so tops.
"Okay class you can now begin," the teacher said after he had finished handing out all of the test papers.
This will be a piece of cake I thought as I rapidly began doing the test. I breezed through the multiple-choice questions and time just seemed to fly by. For all the hype that they put up about this test it was one of the easiest tests I had ever taken. I can't believe that for the last month of school all the teacher talked about was how extremely difficult this test was and how he thought we were all going to fail.
By the time I had finished the multiple-choice questions I was feeling more confident, but I was also feeling an increasing tightness in my bladder that was growing harder and harder to ignore. No matter, I thought to myself, on to the essay portion of the test.
The essay portion of the test was about the Industrial Revolution. That made me think to myself whether they had indoor plumbing during the Industrial Revolution. Just where did people go to pee a century or two ago? How often did people in those factories get a pee break? These are questions that you never see addressed in history class, I wonder why not, I know that is something that I would like to know.
No matter I would just breeze through this essay and then I would be on my way to the bathroom and to blessed blessed relief! The essay was easy and I think I breezed through it faster than I even thought possible, but then I was highly motivated by an achingly full bladder.
"I'm finished," I said as I handed my test to the teacher. "Can I go now?"
"That was awfully fast, are you sure you don't want to double check everything?" he said as he took the test paper from me.
"I already did, it was a very easy test."
"I'm afraid that everyone has to stay for a minimum of two hours."
"What?" I asked in disbelief.
"The state has mandated that everyone has to stay at least two hours regardless of how long they take on the test. You still have another 45 minutes before I can let you leave."
My heart sunk. "Can I at least go to the bathroom?"
The teacher shook his head. "I am sorry but nobody is allowed to leave the classroom until the two hours is up."
I felt like pleading with the teacher but I could see that it was hopeless, so with resignation I went back to my desk and sat down. By now my urge to pee was completely impossible to ignore and getting up to hand my exam to the teacher certainly didn't help. But it was only 45 minutes, that time should pass pretty quickly. I just needed to distract myself and take my mind off of it.
I looked at the pens and pencils sitting on my desk and the bottle of water and then I looked at the clock slowly ticking away second by second. I had absolutely nothing to distract myself!
As discreetly as possible I crossed my legs under my desk and tried to lean back in a way that was comfortable and would take the pressure off of my bladder. I managed to get myself in a semi-comfortable position but I still couldn't ignore the full feeling in my bladder.
I began to play with my hair, twirling it in my fingers and chewing on it a little bit, as I often do when I am nervous. I then took my pen and began chewing on it, another nervous habit of mine. The pen didn't taste very good in my mouth and that made me thirsty. I knew that I shouldn't drink anymore considering I already had to pee extremely bad, but I was so thirsty I couldn't resist so I gulped down some water, which was refreshing, but certainly wasn't helping my bladder situation.
I looked at the clock again to see that I still had a good 40 minutes to wait before I could finally relieve myself, so I had to distract myself. I started slowly shaking my leg, yet another nervous habit, in hopes that it would take some more pressure off, but it didn't really help very much, so I just crossed my legs more tightly and tried to resist the urge to grab myself.
I decided to put my head down on the desk and thought that maybe I could go to sleep. No, of course I couldn't go to sleep, not at an uncomfortable desk with a painfully full bladder. In a short time I was back up and I still had a good 35 minutes left before I could leave. Time seems to move in direct proportion to the contents of your bladder. The fuller your bladder is, the slower that time goes. I think that Einstein had something to say about that, the bladder relativity theory or something like that.
I decided to look out the window thinking maybe that would help take my mind off of things. I could see a squirrel climbing up a tree and that was about it. Looking out the window was not a great distraction. And then it started raining, which really didn't help!
I tried to ignore the sound of the rain but it started to pour and I could hear the rain gently trickling down the side of the building and pounding against the window. That sound of constant rushing water was driving me absolutely frantic so I decided to look back at the clock. Still a half-hour, damn!
Next I started looking around the classroom, trying to distract myself by looking at all the geographical maps on the wall. I bet right now somewhere in the world millions of people were getting relief and weren't stuck waiting in a classroom to use the bathroom. What type of sadism motivates a person to keep people away from a bathroom when they desperately need it? I already finished the test so I was just sitting there doing absolutely nothing, this was unfair, it was inhumane! I could understand if I was still taking the test, but I had finished a long time ago, why did I have to wait here with all the others who are taking forever.
Surely I couldn't be the only one experiencing such bladder distress. I looked around and most of the other students were still working on the test, but then I saw Jenny, a very skinny little girl in our class, and it looked like her legs were jittering a mile a minute, and I could see her subtly crossing them, well maybe not very subtly. I then saw her hand moved between her legs to grab herself. She was definitely desperate all right!
I turned away from Jenny before briefly looking back. It was entertaining seeing her in a similar predicament to me, but the bad thing was that it wasn't particularly helping me to take my mind off of it! Still I couldn't help but glance over in her direction every couple of seconds. She was totally driving me crazy.
Finally Jenny raised her hand.
"Yes?" the teacher asked.
"Can I go to the bathroom?" Jenny asked clearly fidgeting in her seat.
"I don't know, can you?"
"I mean may I go to the bathroom?"
"I am sorry but nobody can leave until they have completed the exam and you have to be here for a minimum of two hours, which means you still have 25 minutes left to wait."
"But it's an emergency!"
"I am sorry, you will just have to hold it."
I have to admit seeing Jenny in a state of such despair kind of put a smile on my face. I wasn't in this alone, and as anyone can tell you when you're the only one who has to go to the bathroom it is that much worse. Maybe it is Schadenfreude, taking pleasure in the misery of others, which helps to take away from your own misery. But just knowing that Jenny wasn't getting to go to the bathroom either gave me a sense of satisfaction and I almost felt like I was in a battle of wills. You could easily hold better than Jenny and longer too, I told myself.
With 20 minutes left until we could finally leave I have to admit that I was getting really frantic. I had my legs crossed really tight, my hands grabbing myself as discreetly as possible and I was starting to rub my butt against the uncomfortable hard plastic seat, or whatever material the desk was made of. I was dying, but I couldn't stop drinking either because I was thirsty. And that rain, it just wouldn't stop!
I kept looking back at Jenny and each time I looked I could see she was getting more and more frantic. She started tapping her feet and it took every amount of willpower for me not to do the same. Then she started tapping her pencil on the desk and I could see every so often she was looking at the clock as well. Only 15 minutes to go, but every minute seemed like an hour. Once again Einstein's relativistic effect of time slowing down relative to the fullness of one's bladder.
Jenny raised her hand again.
"Yes?" the teacher asked.
"Can I please go to the bathroom, it is a real emergency!"
"You only have to wait another 10 minutes."
Jenny put her hand down and put it back between her legs. I have to admit that I couldn't take my eyes off of her, seeing her twisting like a pretzel in her chair, but damn it was driving me crazy. I had to pee so bad but I think that Jenny probably had to go even worse.
The final 10 minutes seemed to go agonizingly slow and I couldn't take my eyes off Jenny. But then finally the announcement came.
"If you are finished with your exam you can leave now," the teacher said. "Just make sure to bring your test up to the desk."
Before I could get up I saw Jenny practically bolted out the door after handing in her test. I followed shortly behind and ran down the hall to the nearest bathroom. I saw Jenny standing outside of the door pushing on it.
"What's wrong?" I asked her.
"It's not open!"
"What do you mean it's not open?"
"They locked it."
"Damn." I forgot that they often locked all the ladies room except the one down by the nurses office. I thought that I should be nice and tell Jenny that, but then I was kind of enjoying seeing her dancing in front of the door like that. But soon enough Jenny ran off, I assume to look for another bathroom.
I quickly went down the hall to the bathroom by the nurse but it was also locked. "No," I said as I pounded on the door. I had to pee so freaking bad at that point and walking around certainly wasn't helping. "Screw it," I said as I ran out of the building. My house was only a block away.
I ran home faster than I ever thought possible and started knocking on the door and then ringing the doorbell. "Come on, hurry up, I have to pee!" I shouted as I continued to ring the doorbell.
Finally my mom opened the door. "How was the test?" she asked.
"It was fine, I have to pee!" I said as I ran upstairs and into the bathroom.
Finally I jerked down my pants and my panties and sat my ass down on the toilet seat and let her rip. I must have peed forever and ever it seemed, my body trembling from the intensity of it. It was one of the most satisfying pees of my life and I had learned my lesson very firmly.
"I think I'll go get something to drink now," I said as I went to my refrigerator and got more water. What, I was home now, so I could pee whenever I wanted! And that was what I learned from social studies. True freedom isn't about fighting wars and building empires, it's about being able to go where you want when you want, and nobody can stop you.

And as always I end with the links, of which I only have a few this time since I recently updated it and I have been pretty good about not spending too much time on my fetish lately. I am actually getting a lot more work done on my serious writing, how about that! So until next time, enjoy!
https://mic.com/articles/145301/cast-of-kinky-boots-protests-north-carolina-bathroom-bill-with-new-musical-number? (Just pee where you wanna pee!)
-http://www.xvideos.com/video4573604/super_hot_desperation (Hot naked desperate masturbation!)
-http://www.xvideos.com/video11107856/blonde_on_heels_pissing_at_a_building_entrance (self explanatory!)
-http://www.xtube.com/video-watch/Bursting-with-pee-desperately-holding-it-all-in-19174972 (More desperate holding with nice cleavage!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Ur5-UOz4Pk (Girls Gotta Pee So Bad // Funny video compilation 2016)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VxrVtIeCb0k (Hot Girls Desperately Want To Pee - Funny Girls Gotta Pee Compilation By Viral Videos 2016 Hd #3)

A Flooded Ladies Room
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I decided to do a brief update. Not a whole lot has happened in the last two months but I figure I should try harder to update this whenever I have the slightest bit to say because I don't have enough updates as it is.
Normally I go to this one the theater by me that's pretty much completely empty all the time I go there. But twice in the last month I went to the movies with my cousin and some of his friends to a different theater in the mall that was a lot more crowded because you had assigned seatings. The seats at the movie theaters were actually really nice and not like any ones that I have ever seen before. They actually have recliners, which I thought was rather fancy and quite nice. So it was a pretty nice movie theater overall.
The first time when I went to see Capt. America Civil War I was hoping that perhaps since I went to a more crowded theater with multiple theaters with hundreds of people in them that it would be more crowded and thus there would be larger bathroom lines, but although there was a line it wasn't anything particularly huge because there were something like seven stalls in the ladies room and it seems like not a lot of people used the bathroom after the movie. But then it could be because we also waited until the end to see what was after the credits and by then many people had probably already used the bathroom because they left before that.
Then the other week I went there and something more interesting happened! I went with my cousin, his girlfriend and their two friends. I was hoping maybe that time I would encounter an interesting bathroom line or some type of desperation and I sort of partially got lucky in that regard, but also unlucky in that regard! Allow me to explain the unexpected events that happened.
When we first got to the movies I had to use the bathroom because I was recovering from my latest illness and sometimes when I try eating for the first time (popcorn usually doesn't bother me) I have to run to the bathroom because I get the runs, so that's never fun when you're at the movie theater. But luckily it meant that I went to the bathroom in the very beginning so I was less desperate than I usually was to start off with. But not by much because I usually go to the bathroom before leaving for the movie theater, which I did in this instance, but I got to go to the bathroom a little bit in the beginning anyway.
This time we saw the movie X-Men Apocalypse which is like two and a half hours long plus previews and we waited for the scenes that come after the credits again. Now before the movie I ended up getting a really large soda. At the movie theater by me I usually just get a thing of bottled water but since they didn't really have that at this theater I decided to get a soda and since it was only a few cents more to get an extra large I figured why not? So now the scene is set for 2 1/2 hours that I was at the movie theater I was drinking away and guzzling that soda. As you can expect by the end of the movie I had to pee pretty damn bad! Again 2 1/2 hours is an endurable length, but drinking a tremendous amount like that you are still going to have to go, I don't care who you are!
Luckily I knew where the bathrooms were from last time but here's where I got a really unexpected and somewhat unpleasant surprise! Was it a line? Nope. It was something more frustrating than that! I went to the bathroom with Carol, one of the other women who went to the movie theater with us. By that time I was pretty much bursting, maybe not ready to explode, but I was probably about eight or nine on the desperation scale, so needless to say I was eager for a pee! I mean in all honesty I have held from a level 8 scale of desperation for hours, but it's really really uncomfortable! And when you're out in public with a group of people that makes it even more awkward.
So wouldn't you know it. We get into the ladies room and it seems like everything is nice and empty and we won't have any wait at all. There was a reason for that. When we get closer we realized that one of the toilets in there was clogged up and overflowing and the entire ladies room was basically flooded and the floor was soaked. I'll be perfectly honest I was going to go and try and use the bathroom anyway but the entire place really was flooded completely. I would say that all seven stalls had water on the floor and I wasn't exactly going to pull down my pants and let it sit in the disgusting toilet water on the floor. So needless to say I was pretty damn disappointed because I was fully expecting to go to the bathroom!
Reluctantly I just washed my hands (the sinks were before the stalls and they weren't flooded) like I do after eating popcorn and that was sheer torture because the last thing you want to see without getting to go to the bathroom is running water like that! So all of that only served to add to my frustration.
We leave the ladies room pretty quickly and everyone remarks how fast we were and jokes about how there must have been no lines or anything. The two guys with us had already gotten to go to the bathroom or came out like a few seconds after we did, and my cousin's girlfriend basically never uses the bathroom. Seriously I have seen her numerous times for hours at a time and I don't think I have one seen her take a bathroom break, so she obviously must have pretty good bladder control.
I also have relatively good bladder control if I am really honest with myself. I can hold it a pretty damn long time if I really HAVE TO, I just can't do it comfortably! So by this point I am getting a little bit shifty and leg crossing, albeit very subtly. I don't know how badly Carol had to use the bathroom but she obviously must have had to go enough that she went to use the bathroom after the movie. That kind of pleased me. At least I wasn't the only one stuck desperate and longing for a bathroom, solo desperation is always a lot more difficult.
At that point I wasn't exactly sure what was going to happen because everything else in the mall is closed at that hour (we went to like 10:15 PM showing and we didn't get out until like after 1 AM) other than the movie theater. Carol wanted to tell someone at the movie theater that their bathroom was flooded and I was hoping that maybe they would take care of the problem. Unfortunately by then pretty much everyone had disappeared and we couldn't find anyone to tell about the bathroom situation. We left the movie theater and we found some guy right outside of it was cleaning up and we told him about the toilet situation but he had nothing to do with the movie theater so we were pretty much out of luck. At that point I pretty much realized it looked like I wasn't going to get a bathroom break!
After that we left the theater and then we were chatting outside for a while. The guys were of course really chatty and comfortable and everyone else was chatting away and meanwhile my bladder was close to bursting and I was trying hardest not to show it. Plus the cold night air made me have to pee even more. But I think I have already said numerous times that one of the most frustrating things is to have to pee and have conversations with people who you know don't have to pee. I knew that Carol had to pee but she wasn't showing any clear or obvious signs of desperation, although I was imagining in my mind that she had to pee. So I just sort of patiently waited there all the while thinking "let's get going I have to use the bathroom!"
Ultimately nothing particularly interesting happened after that. My cousin drove me home in about 20 min. but that was 20 min. with a bursting bladder. At least we went the quicker way and it was late at night when there is no traffic. Going to his house on the movies took about 40 min. but getting home only took half as much time. But then I had to run into my house in the dark and fiddle with my keys and then run up to use the bathroom. So by the time I finally got home and went to the bathroom I had been holding it for about three hours with an extra large soda inside of me. And I have to say it was quite the satisfying pee!
I love situations involving bathroom lines and desperation and all of that, but at the end of this scenario I like to ultimately get to use the bathroom. This was one of those cases where I was denied my relief until I ultimately got home. It would have been better to encounter a long line the bathroom than cannot get to use the bathroom at all. But I guess these things happen sometimes and I have to admit that after the fact is always really exciting to look back on and every little experience like this is always a bit of a thrill, so I am not complaining. But at the time it is happening in the back of your mind you are always thinking "this will make a good story, but damn do I want to pee!"
Hopefully I will update this blog more frequently but again I usually don't have that many experiences. But it seems like lately I have had more than usual, so who knows, maybe I will have another update sometime in the near future if I go to that theater again! And if not maybe I will try to write some fictional stories because the stories I think of in my mind are more exciting than the ones I experience in reality. I am a sick twisted novelist after all!
And as always I will end with the links I have collected since my last update. This one doesn't have as many as last time though since it has only been two months instead of nine months.
-https://unexpectednudity.tumblr.com/ (Unexpected Nudity!)
-http://www.gsparadise.net/ (Golden showers paradise)
-http://a1-10280.5-292.cdn13.com/videos/7765324.mp4 (That is a really hot tushie! And she is very acrobatic.)
-http://a1-10280.5-355.cdn13.com/videos/481B8AB.mp4 (Girl pees all over herself upside down LOL.)
-http://a1-10280.5-233.cdn13.com/videos/5E5AB9F.mp4 (Desperate girl pees)
-https://unusualnudephotos.tumblr.com/ (Unusual nude photos.)
-http://pissgirl95.tumblr.com/ (Pissing tumblr.)
-http://www.examiner.com/article/report-notes-a-rather-embarrassing-situation-of-u-s-troops-urinating-public (Soldiers peeing all over.)
-http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/shocking-video-shows-woman-urinating-6109483 (Proof you don't need a penis to pee out of a moving vehicle! Seriously she deserves an award.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-_s07RGAbtg (Desperate and wetting in parking garage.)
-https://unexpectednudity.tumblr.com/post/141246892000/itskkiss-a-true-slut-will-do-anything-you-ask (Two naked women playing underneath some water. This really made me have to pee LOL)
-http://www.redtube.com/1013584 (Desperate woman.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w4orGKjN8Fs (Gender swap bathroom.)
-http://fastfoodflashers.tumblr.com/archive (Fast food public nudity.)
-https://linkbeef.com/things-all-women-do-but-will-never-admit/#_ (4. We are particular about pooping in public
When we have to (and absolutely HAVE to) go while out in public, we try to pretend were not in the stall and act dead silent if someone comes in. We wont poop until theyre left the bathroom. If they came to poop there is usually a poop stalemate. And nobody wins in a poop stalemate.)
-http://www.cafepress.com/+love-pooping-and-texting+tank-tops (Funny shirt.)
-http://www.usmagazine.com/celebrity-news/news/womans-harrowing-twitter-tale-of-pooping-on-a-first-date-is-pulitzer-worthy-w200026 (I would give her the Pulitzer Prize for that gross ass story!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GxCxuOXYEjw (Wow she is really frantic to pee!)
-http://profeminist.tumblr.com/ (I don't know if I have posted this before but it is my favorite nonpornographic tumbler, making it 100th overall LOL. But seriously this is a really good website about feminist stuff and I recommend anyone into women's issues why civil rights issues to subscribe to it.)
-https://www.washingtonpost.com/posteverything/wp/2016/05/13/how-the-psychology-of-public-bathrooms-explains-the-bathroom-bills/ (Expertly illustrates a lot of the points I made about sexual tension in the bathroom.)
-http://www.voyeurstyle.com/watch/4361/mature-mommy-takes-a-piss-in-the-field/ (Loud pissing!)

A Year's Worth of Links
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-http://www.bbc.com/news/health-32082387 (31% put off going to the bathroom.)
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-3027726/They-peeing-Desperate-Cubs-fans-relieve-cups-Wrigley-Field-bathroom-breakdown-causes-one-HOUR-lines.html (Epic lines)
-https://thoughtsofatravellingteacher.wordpress.com/2013/11/01/busan-fireworks-festival/ (Luckily, I did not need to go to the bathroom too often in the 5 hours we waited for the fireworks, but when I did, it was a bit of a mission. After getting out of the roped off area, you had to fight through the crowds to find a place with a bathroom to use. On a regular day at Gwangalli, that would be an easy task. The strip along the beach is filled with coffee shops. However, the first one we went to was only letting people with “reservations” in. Seriously?! So we went down to Lotteria, which is Korea’s version of McDonalds. While we got in, the line up for the woman’s bathroom was long to say the least. Knowing the men’s one is always shorter, we went up to join that line. Turns out we weren’t the only ones with that idea, as there was a whole separate line of women in line for the one stall in the men’s bathroom and a line of men to use the urinal. It was crazy.)
http://www.nyooztrend.com/regional/326338-they-were-peeing-everywhere-desperate-cubs-fans-relieve-themselves-into-plastic-cups-at-wrigley-field-as-bathroom-breakdown-causes-one-hour-lines.html (more on the hour long line)
-http://www.inquisitr.com/1209433/miami-dade-voters-banned-from-using-bathroom-while-waiting-in-line-to-cast-ballot/ (A possible reason for low voter turnout.)
-http://www.ijreview.com/2015/01/228609-new-front-war-women-sexism-long-bathroom-lines/ (Bathroom lines are sexist. Just like my museum line story. 50 women in line, empty men's room. Same in the UK it seems!)
-http://www.citylab.com/politics/2014/11/the-lack-of-equal-bathroom-access-for-women-is-a-global-design-flaw/382418/ (More on how women have worse lines.)
http://motherless.com/D7DA26B (Nude girls rubbing butts!)
http://cfnmandcmnf.net/ (Great nonmutual nudity site.)
http://www.misterpoll.com/polls/602206 (Girls peeing at house parties)
http://forums.theknot.com/discussion/832999/question-spanx-amp-going-to-the-bathroom (Peeing in spanx)
http://thepeoplescube.com/peoples-blog/feminist-group-breaks-urinals-as-a-symbol-of-male-chauvinism-t16210.html (Feminists destroy urinals.)
-https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18603807-potty-theory (A cool new book on women's bathrooms!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=23&v=F03Nf0VCVLA (Dangerpiss!)
-http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2915272/Woman-wets-pants-Horror-Maze-mortified-photo-used-promote-Scream-Park.html (Photo of women pissing herself used to promote haunted house as so scary you'll piss yourself.)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Desperate-schoolgirl-toilet-run-4 (Japanese girls desperate to pee.)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/ (Desperation tumblr)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/chatroomx (Desperation chatroom.)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/bathroomlinecollab (Bathroom line tumblr)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWacMAes2dA&feature=youtu.be (Girl wets herself in constrictive clothes.)
-http://peetrina.tumblr.com/ (Peeing and desperation blog)
-http://omorashiandcatgirls.tumblr.com/ (Desperate catgirls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=10&v=2_7Q1xQ-NWU (How the Urinary System Works )
-http://deadspin.com/5521136/excerpt-from-sarah-silvermans-the-bedwetter (Exert from Sarah Silverman's book, the Bedwetter)
-http://nikkistory.com/2015/02/girls-dont-poop.html (Girls don't poop LOL)
-http://poopeegirls.com/706-girl-pooping-in-the-woods-sitting-on-a-perch.html (This is what I picture in my story LOL)
-http://poopeegirls.com/928-victoria-lee-pooping-in-the-woods.html#cl (Girl pooping in the woods.)
-http://mentalfloss.com/article/30110/why-does-sound-running-water-make-you-have-pee (I was wondering!)
-https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20091109131719AAnjkva (More on running water and peeing.)
-http://www.city-data.com/forum/health-wellness/626346-why-does-sound-feel-water-make.html (Driving over bridges does it too!)
-http://hsionline.com/2010/07/22/running-water/ (More running water)
http://www.reddit.com/r/explainlikeimfive/comments/1wwjlb/why_does_the_sound_of_water_make_me_feel_the_urge/ ("Cells that fire together, wire together."
Your brain is a neural network that stores information in a weird way. Not like a computer "set this to 1, this to 0, this to 1". Rather, it's a bunch of signals that fire when the inputs to them are firing strongly enough. When your brain changes (learning something, new habits, conditioning), that changes the threshold for that firing as well as the weights that connect the related neurons, so as to encourage more or less firing. (Hence the above quotation -- activations that happen together are mutually reinforcing.)
Ultimately, it means that when different events tend to happen together, then one event's happening will trigger the brain activity from the other.
It relates to a whole bunch of other phenomena, like how advertisers mainly focus on making you think "happy thoughts" associated with their product.
Since hearing the sound of water (in cultures with toilets) is associated with the feeling of urination, then they are likewise mutually-reinforcing in the brain. Just the same, while you pee, that makes you more likely to interpret any given sound as being water-like.)
-http://gurumagazine.org/askaguru/sound-running-water-make-want-pee/ (ONe more!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3nbtDbHDTJM (Gf just wants to poo. British LOL. Perfect example of how being on the toilet makes you a captive prisoner in submissive position.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AZQO5hLm94 (Aimee Has To Poop! Love the butt grabbing! Love to see her as a pooper.)
-https://vid.me/f4bn (She pees forever omg torture to watch while desperate.)
-http://www.iflscience.com/plants-and-animals/western-pooping-bad-your-booty (We are pooping wrong.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNcDBn7W9Wk (A Japanese girl is forced to watch another girl be tickle tortured before being tickled herself!)
-http://i.imgur.com/2xlM9SF.jpg (Awesome story about someone taking a hideous disgusting crap in a bathroom that is less than pleasant. That is kind of like what every crap would be like in my scenario for the poopers!)
-http://thepee.ml/index.php/Main_Page (Books and movies with peeing scenes.)
-http://www.enca.com/south-africa/handcuffed-woman-soils-herself-after-police-deny-her-access-toilet-station (Arrested woman not allowed to use toilet for 6 hours wets herself.)
-http://lovewettinggirls.tumblr.com/ (wetting girls.)
-http://wwwettinggirls.tumblr.com/ (More wetting girls.)
-http://toopeeforyou.tumblr.com/ (Desperation tumblr.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FSPXYjqFRY (Girl hypnotized to be desperate.)
-http://prettyfetishthings.tumblr.com/archive (Pee site.)
-https://docs.google.com/file/d/0Bw9PnRuV1K44YUt4dFV6TDFfZE0/edit?pli=1 (Excellent very desperate girl in the car.)
-http://shyenfortease.tumblr.com/ (New ENF site.)
-http://project-enf.tumblr.com/ (ENF site with videos and animated gifs!)
http://project-enf.tumblr.com/post/118460464707/girl-lost-her-towel-check-the-full-video (A particularly good ENF gif!)
-http://showyourbeautifulbody.tumblr.com/archive (Standard porn.)
-http://www.gold-water.de/chat/index.php (German pee chatroom.)
(Tickling tumblrs.)
-http://www.femdom-stories.blogspot.com/ (Femdom stories.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_J_nD9Uoew (Pregnant woman desp in car on way to ultrasound!)
-https://twitter.com/peepeefetish (I don't really use Twitter but here is a peeing twitter.)
-http://pee-pee-fetish.tumblr.com/ (Tumblr of the above.)
-http://omofox.tumblr.com/archive (Desperation tumblr with videos.)
-http://2pee4you.tumblr.com/ (Peeing tumblr.)
-http://gobphus.tumblr.com/ (Peeing tumblr.)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Japanese-Girls-Pissing-Desperation-on-Hidden-Cam (self explainitory!)
-http://holdingit.minuteboard.com/m/b/a/showtopic.html?topicid=61740&nr=9 (Asking to use the bathroom for Japanese girls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pWIDulbiZoA&feature=youtu.be (a bunch of women running for the bathroom. Unfortunately it looks like it's in Italian or some foreign language so I don't know what they are saying, but it seems like it is an ad for some overactive bladder medication or something like that.)
(Nudity tumblrs.)
-http://philtoubis.tumblr.com/ (sexy women. Some nudity.)
-http://ptogether.tumblr.com/ (Men and women peeing together.)
-http://www.womanist-musings.com/2008_08_03_archive.html (No more Penis Envy)
-http://www.nude-in-public.com/ (Public nudity site.)
-http://sexy-lady-japan.tumblr.com/ (Japanese Girls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0a0I2YMgKs (How to Wait for the Bathroom with Chell (Animation On Display 2013) )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2wGdOUD3lqQ (Brief bathroom line video.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmJMaYyRT1E (Responsibility-Waiting for the Bathroom.mov)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Sativa-s-tinkle-trouble (Wow that was an amazingly hot clip. The nudity, the desperation, the peeing. All excellent. Though I prefer shaved that didn't take anything away from this clip.)
-http://www.abc.net.au/health/thepulse/stories/2011/11/17/3367126.htm (Incontinence in women. Most interesting part: Whether you're worried about incontinence or not, you're never too young to learn healthy bladder habits.
One habit most of us pick up as children is going to the toilet 'just in case', says Korda, but this is bad advice.
In fact, if you go to the toilet too often, your bladder becomes used to holding less urine - which could cause problems in the long run.
"We should hang on as long as we can instead of going prophylactically. Hanging on and increasing your bladder storage is good for you," says Korda.
Here are some other points to consider:
Ladies, remember to sit on the toilet – don't hover over the seat as this can prevent you from properly emptying your bladder.
Take your time, again so your bladder can empty properly. If you rush and don't empty your bladder you could increase your risk of bladder infection over time.
Try not to strain when opening your bowels. This can weaken your pelvic floor muscles which are vital for bladder control.) I think that I have paired bladder habits because I tend to go as soon as I feel your age. But I do sit on the toilet rather than hover and I do take my time, so I guess I am doing something right at least.
-http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/j.1464-4096.2004.04821.x/full (Interesting finding is that women tend to pee seven times a day when they are younger versus six for men but that starts to reverse as men get older.)
-http://cpj.sagepub.com/content/32/1_suppl/5.short (Bedwetting in children.)
-http://www.med.monash.edu.au/news/2012/bladder.html (I am glad that I don't have incontinence but I have never had sex or gotten pregnant either.)
-http://www.empowher.com/wellness/content/squatting-when-urinating-bad-women (I guess I am doing the right thing by sitting then!)
-http://myomosecret.tumblr.com/archive (Desperation videos.)
-http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=FXspK-S689- (Desperate girl.)
-https://omorashi.org/topic/26543-some-real-stats-about-wetting-from-science-journals/ (Awesome thread on omorashi.)
-https://vid.me/f4bn (Woman peeing loudly.)
-https://youtu.be/ywiwXAfMN_Q (This is where they get the phrase having to piss like a racehorse from. Very brutal if you are desperate and watching this!)
- (Girl peeing loud)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d03vahXFhiM (Penis vs Vagina)
Story men needing to go double for women funny forced to go everywhere charging the toilets rainy day car trip he used to be able to outhold all the women, Does a Jill shit in the Woods?! Zoo desperation 1992
-https://vimeo.com/100021239 (NOWHERE (2009) / central scene / for Pina-artistic nudity)
-http://www.chatzy.com/78995818900991 (Pee Chat.)
-http://crystal-black-babes.tumblr.com/archive (Hot black women.)
-http://eroticsets2010.tumblr.com/ (Erotic female pics.)
-http://majesticunclothed.com/archive (Nude women.)
-http://nypost.com/2015/07/05/why-you-should-never-hold-your-pee/ (I never drink that much and hold for that long though so I'm not worried! I also don't drink alcohol so I guess that doesn't really count.)
-http://mentalfloss.com/article/31408/science-breaking-seal (more about breaking the seal.)
-http://onlyonenaked.tumblr.com/ (One sided nudity.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4l5FM24RxYo (8 hours of toilet flushing!)
-http://watchgirlspeeing.com/threads/the-toilet-is-right-there-but-she-pees-on-the-floor.4656/ (Women peeing on the floor.)
-http://asiadreaming.tumblr.com/ (Asian women tumblr.)
-http://thegirlwatcher.tumblr.com/post/123268111351 (Sexy women.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJqtUUDhaxA (The Crediblity Gap: How Sexism Shapes Human Knowledge | Soraya Chemaly | TEDxBarcelonaWomen. Mentions bathroom lines in beginning.)
-https://twitter.com/EverydaySexism (Not about bathroomws, but a good site exposing sexism.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aJaZc4E8Y4U (10 hours of trickling water down bamboo.)
-http://www.theonion.com/article/narrow-gaps-in-bathroom-stall-doors-to-be-widened--33608 (A toilet voyeur's dream come true.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5lFZrUZIMGY&feature=youtu.be (Elephant peeing)
-http://www.ijreview.com/2015/01/228609-new-front-war-women-sexism-long-bathroom-lines/ (Bathroom lines are sexist...but fun! And it's nice to see I'm not the only one who waited on a line of 50 women at a museum bathroom.)
-https://hurstrobert.wordpress.com/2014/07/20/god-places/ (Slide 10: Jesus hates women who cut in line!)
-http://www.gowanuslounge.com/toilet-paper-coney-island-boardwalk/ (Toilet paper rationing, WTF?)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0l2wwRGqUg (The Longest Bathroom Line Ever)
-http://runningatdisney.com/2013/05/14/long-branch-half-marathon-race-recap/ (Leave to find a shorter line find another line. Know the feeling LOL.)
-http://www.weclassy.com/blogs/news/5025382-classy-supports-womens-rights (Women using urinals.)
-http://bionic-nerd.com/index.php/rome-day-15/ (That they are so proud of having 1,000 chemical toilets for 3 million pilgrims makes me laugh. It’s great that they’re thinking ahead, but the math just feels off to me. Maybe I’m wrong.)
-http://www.justpo.st/channel/which+bathroom+is+the+men+s (Funny bathroom memes.)
-http://julespgsite.com/2014/10/12/belle-parole-non-pascon-i-gatti-or-fine-words-dont-feed-cats/ (:"Here’s a fun fact: Women’s lines to the toilette are just as long, if not longer, in Rome. The men whiz in and out as usual while we, the child containers, resulting in heavily-bladder-affected women must simply stand and move slowly. Much like cows to milking we shuffle to a small room with maybe two stalls. Each appears made for a fit, petite woman. Seat covers? Ha. Squat or get wet with unidentifiable urine. Half the time there are no seats with which to sit, if you do that sort of thing. Great for your thighs though!" I went chatted with someone who said they went to Vatican City and she said that the bathroom lines were too long and she didn't get to use the bathroom.)
-http://www.xeladailyphoto.com/2011/11/24/annnd-waiting/#.VfzyHJeIwhs (The long lines at the ladies room, didn’t seem to discourage the women in Calvario from putting up with them, then again…there is nowhere else to go to the bathroom down at the Calvario Park. The funny thing is that there were about 25 women in line waiting to use the 3 stall facility and only one or two men waiting to use the men’s room. A few of us ladies actually asked if we could use the men’s room since the line was so long and there were no men waiting. The attendant told us that she couldn’t allow that, it just wasn’t “right”. The mother of a very young girl was insistent that it would be fine with us and many of us agreed, but the attendant was not to be moved, which led us all to a rampant discussion about how there should be 5 times the public bathrooms available for women than for men, since usually it is also the women who take the children to use the washrooms. I don’t think the attendant was very happy with our conversation.)
-http://identity-mag.com/8-awkward-bathroom-situations/ (Awkward bathroom situations.)
-http://www.missionmission.org/2011/02/15/boys-bathroom-line-intolerably-long-at-dolores-park/ (Long lines for men and women.)
-http://blitz827.livejournal.com/697.html (Good desperate story.)
-http://www.theatlantic.com/education/archive/2015/07/teachers-not-enough-bathroom-time/399629/ (Teachers don't get enough bathroom breaks apparently and are often desperate throughout the day. Maybe that's why they don't like letting students use the bathroom, if they have to suffer, then so should the students. I must say that I'm quite pleased at this but it also highlights the fact that bathroom needs, which is a very basic need, is often not addressed people are just forced to grin and bear it.)
-http://imgur.com/r/cfnf (Hot CFNF site!)
-http://student49.tumblr.com/page/383 (Nudity in general.)
-http://uknaturist.tumblr.com/post/47854543463 (Awesome pic I saw years ago and just recently found again.)
-http://uknaturist.tumblr.com/archive (Gorgeous!)
-http://cfnmandcmnf.net/ (Nudity videos.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vROmS4Gp8vM (A really sexist guy rants against potty parity for like 22 min. straight! This is why we can't have nice things LOL.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-0JdpIviRs (Another sexist rants against potty parity for like 13 min.)
-http://www.squattypotty.com/ (A stool to help you poop squatting.)
-https://twitter.com/pottyparity (Potty parity has a twitter site.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q1JkHs2pBsE (A better video about potty parity made by a woman who points out all the reasons why it is needed. There is good videos of women waiting in line as well as women looking to find the bathroom. That is something I had never actually thought to bring up in my blog before but I have experienced that as well, where the ladies room is often more difficult to find or isn't available on every floor of a building. I thought it was great that they showed videos of that.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3T6tNBxtxqo (Boy peeing forcefully for like 2 min. nonstop. Incredibly brutal to watch if you are desperate! Someone actually sent me this video while I was desperate to make me more desperate LOL.)
-http://sarahcandersen.com/page/21 (Times when I urgently need to pee.)
-https://www.google.co.uk/search?q=Vauxhall+station+urinal&source=lnms&tbm=isch&gws_rd=ssl#gws_rd=ssl&imgrc=_ (Street urinals.)
-http://bitingherlip.tumblr.com/ (Biting the lip, what can I say, it's sexy!)
-http://utterlyadorable.tumblr.com/ (More sexiness.)
-http://shattenbereich.livejournal.com/1203666.html (Nude blog.)
-http://www.mtv.com/videos/misc/426764/jonna-pees-her-pants.jhtml (woman pees her pants.)
-http://www.sodahead.com/united-states/new-rule-prohibits-voters-in-miami-dade-county-from-using-the-restroom-no-matter- how-long-the-line/question-4275311/ (I think that this is discriminatory against people with smaller bladders, which also usually means women, so it is sexist as well.)
(Ladies room line cartoons. Excellent.)
-http://janabouc.com/tag/pen-and-ink/ (I’m glad I didn’t wait until the last minute to use the restroom in the Ferry Building. There were 35 women in line for the ladies’ room and only about 3 for the men’s. Why? It was interesting drawing the women right in front of me because of the odd foreshortening I perceived looking down their backsides. Next time you’re waiting in line, try to draw the person right in front of you and you’ll see what I mean.)
-https://emmabolden.files.wordpress.com/2013/03/20130307-233750.jpg (restroom line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aag3tPL1XiQ (British woman poop desperation.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2UVROhEs334 (woman desperate to poop.)
-http://wellthatsawkward.wordpress.com/tag/coed/ (Woman describes an experience of a coed sauna and shower.)
-http://www.toplessrobot.com/2013/10/the_asian_toilet_cafe_has_come_to_the_us.php (Asian toilet cafe is coming here!)
-http://aidanmoher.com/blog/featured-article/2013/05/we-have-always-fought-challenging-the-women-cattle-and-slaves- narrative-by-kameron-hurley/ (Article about women in history. I like the fact they mentioned this: "Let’s just put it this way: if you think there’s a thing – anything – women didn’t do in the past, you’re wrong. Women – now and then – even made a habit of peeing standing up. They wore dildos. So even things the funny-ha-ha folks immediately raise a hand to say “It’s impossible women didn’t do X!” Well. They did it.")
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rwenAIIn21g (Absolutely amazing bathroom line video lasting 10 min. and showing signs of desperation. Dozens of women come to use the toilet in that amount of time. One of the best videos I have seen in ages.)
-http://boards.straightdope.com/sdmb/archive/index.php/t-192021.html (Suggests that ladies room lines have grown longer since the 1970s as a result of more women being in public life but the toilet situation has not improved.)
-http://www.popsugar.com/fitness/Why-Long-Line-Women-Restrooms-273017 (why lines are so long, again we pee more and men have more freaking stalls than us!)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ov9Ae-cSBh0 (14 min. of bathroom line in 2 parts!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpVUVDOp0Wc (Girls pooping.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIr69kbHmcg (New Funniest Nude Girls Toilet Scary Pranks OF 2015.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqn-kdcYJ6s (Girl poops, has no toilet paper.)
-http://feminismfuckyeah.tumblr.com/ (Feminist blog.)
-http://www.bbc.com/news/world-asia-34861876 (Women in India must pay to pee, men pee free.)
- http://www.dailykos.com/stories/2015/12/22/1462746/-Donald-Trump-uses-Hillary-Clinton-s-bathroom-break-to-remind-us-how- much-he-hates-women?detail=email (I seriously hate Donald Trump but this is pretty funny and I can only imagine what a jackass like him would do during my scenario.)
-http://brightside.me/article/men-women-we-are-so-different-64555/ (the bathroom line one!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zP6IV-GLYR4 (As a lesbian this would basically be my Paradise!)
-http://www.huffingtonpost.com/soraya-chemaly/biology-doesnt-write-laws_b_8874638.html?ncid=fcbklnkushpmg00000063 (Donald Trump and conservatives can't accept the fact that women go to the bathroom. I can only imagine how terrible it would be in my poop desperation scenario!)
-http://prison-diaries.com/prison-conditions/dooker-lookers/ (pooping in prison would really be a nightmare in my poop redistribution scenario!)
-http://nypost.com/2016/01/27/this-woman-is-sitting-naked-on-a-toilet-in-the-name-of-art/(I think that that is my type of art!)
-http://www.nbcnews.com/id/23595533/ns/health-health_care/t/woman-sits-boyfriends-toilet-years/#.Vq8faOaIwhs (two years is a long time to be on the toilet she must have had to go really bad!)
-http://www.ebaumsworld.com/pictures/view/82454095/ (Girls on the toilet)
-http://omorashi.online/ (Desperation site)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y0bkg976WzY (Blind naked girl prank.)
-http://www.hercampus.com/health/physical-health/24-thoughts-you-have-when-you-really-need-pee (Yup!)
-http://cmp.hku.hk/beta/2010/12/11/8936/ (now capitalism is even determining who gets to go to the bathroom first!)
-http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/PottyEmergency (A good guide to desperation scenes in various forms of media.)
-http://y2j0130.tumblr.com/post/138694066107/desperation-to-the-maxxxx-desperate-inked (Girl very desperate to pee!)
-http://iheartwetting.tumblr.com/post/138407156383/dtc55-kittens-wet-cuties-my-first-video (Likewise)
-https://jennaleaderpt.files.wordpress.com/2015/10/health-bladder-handout.pdf (I admit that I usually go long before I feel completely fall.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GWPKvA29cM (Renée Needs A Pee - Funny Scene from "New In Town" )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4hbfWBAG6k0 (Busting for a wee.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSWIxOWm84U (Girl Pee Vine Compilation)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BV4GcaSXnU8 (There is a bee in my bathroom and I have to pee! -my worst fear is bees!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uYcs0moMyeU (Girl Pee - Girls Pee Again Vine Compilation )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9y6IjK8fUPc (Girl Pee Accidentally Compilation (in public) Funny )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8yLlN-MeEA (Girls Peeing On The Road Side | Boat Deck | Men 's Washroom)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iupKbVEEk8 (Women Can Pee Standing Up)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPUXJ2moh9w (Girl has to pee really bad.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zNH4IetiUM (What a mean teacher!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nGcr-RD4cPw (PISSED the movie-This one is really great and long too!)
- http://y2j0130.tumblr.com/post/138694066107
http://dirtysylaina.tumblr.com/post/132224311066/ahh-have-to-pee-so-bad-im-doing-the-potty-dance (Bunch of desperation wetting tumblr videos someone i was chatting with sent me.)
http://twitter.com/holdit247 (Desperation on Twitter)
-http://www.urinal.net/national_zoo/ (Female Urinals)
-http://time.com/2921371/womens-restroom-lines/ (attempts to end ladies room lines.)
-https://www.quora.com/Why-are-bathroom-lines-for-women-always-longer-at-public-events (Why long lines. Good analysis.)
-http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2015/01/07/womens-restrooms-sexist_n_6431184.html (Sexism and bathroom lines.)
-http://articles.mcall.com/1994-07-28/features/2994449_1_potty-parity-denise-wells-women-s-room (Early article about potty parity.)
-http://helenair.com/lifestyles/bathroom-dash-may-become-a-thing-of-the-past-at/article_edbb0be6-75d7-11e3-abcf- 001a4bcf887a.html (The bathroom dash!)
-http://dailycaller.com/2015/01/07/wealthy-pampered-white-woman-whines-about-having-to-wait-to-use-the-bathroom/ (A less sympathetic piece)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x30dtu8 (Clothes stolen from woman)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2s1opg (Woman stripped to towel in NYC)
-http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x28fcdg_embarrassed-naked-female-caught-skinny-dipping_shortfilms (Skinny dipping.)
-http://www.deviantart.com/tag/enf (ENF pictures.)
-http://www.project-enf.com/ (ENF videos)
-http://enfworld.com/ (ENF videos)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cS1LCLVNLlk (Funny ladies room video women shit glitter, flowers and kittens.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGAniAakaRw (Embarrassing sounds in the ladies' room)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFzBsPgpBhw&ebc=ANyPxKrm9iRUM- XcU4p3D8SVxPO9yMCFSmap0JUEbBGqLZnIV5Ay21mpBfnOb5pj9h2kN0ZBwz1RmF7pfo9roszsOVTtrQe2cA (Long line no men's line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cU-2U_tlxgc (long ladies line in Germany.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1vR4hGPpsMo (astonishing toilet line in England.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOkF_Hy4brc (Huge german toilet line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vxrNSl6s7_U (Squatting by line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFMD5FbQDSg (Part 2)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JjfiwzkDh_U (15 minutes German bathroom line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tu5slgmfG6o (Desperate Chic waiting outside of occupied bathroom)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uI6r9BKzOxY (9 minutes bathroom line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D-Qv5dPNZA0 (8 minutes bathroom line.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvkK76_VD8c (Desperate Dash for Relief, a couple trying to reach WC in time)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZfaSn1Yets (Desperate Dash for Relief, locked WC )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8Js2XPjwlE (Desperate Dash for Relief, three ladies)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6cCc_O5veY (Desperate Woman pee pee dancing at traffic light)
-http://waaw.tv/watch_video.php?v=X15O2OO5H1US#iss=NjkuMTI0Ljc1LjIxOA== (What.Do.You.Sat.to.a.Naked.Lady.1970.DVDRIP.X264.AAC.CrEwSaDe)
-http://www.nytimes.com/2016/03/18/nyregion/with-few-public-toilets-new-york-has-no-place-to-go-if-you-have-to-go.html?_r=1 (No toilets in NYC!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LcvpyZalwQ&feature=em-subs_digest (11+ minutes of superlong line!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=YzHAZmYNvKE&ebc=ANyPxKpDN2ylDSaybbLl5PY_rN6NrYkQ1slp_Jg2swFwAI3lvym3gBo59nIoN92mnfvwdERXnTmjMFQVg1qQ3wqtfC61H8SH-A (Women peeing outside.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HofWhHIQ3g&ebc=ANyPxKp6TB2xsa4dUClKz2z-xWLau-vpt9jLDfzrIOo- Cc4ZpycuDeo8LzpBFTSVAY_BSmD5_k8cKssCvj9vwV8M7qWAxFGXew (More peeing outside for women)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGcVUVHN3gI (She hike Nature Calls.)
-http://embarrassednudyfemale.tumblr.com/archive (ENF Tumbler)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGjqO1-Mb6k (Mythbusters pee dance.)
-http://www.wellbuzz.com/dr-ozs-advice/dr-oz-why-women-always-have-to-pee-mens-bladders-vs-womens-bladders/ (Male vs Female bladder. "Doctor Oz did a segment on why women always have to pee… apparently Dr Oz’s beautiful wife and daughters are always asking him to pull over to go to the restroom (my husband can definitely relate!). Is the male bladder so different from the female bladder?
Male Bladder Vs Female Bladder
Dr Oz showed a real man’s bladder and a real woman’s bladder. Both bladders are about the same size and can hold about the same amount of urine (2 cups according to Dr Oz). The main differences are the shape, due to where the bladder is located in a man versus in a woman, and the fact that the woman’s bladder seemed to have slightly thinner walls than the man’s bladder.
Why Women Always Have to Pee:
To answer this question, Dr Oz did a demonstration with pizza dough. The male pizza dough or “pelvic floor” stayed pretty thick and well put together. The woman’s pizza dough or “pelvic floor” can stretch out from childbirth, straining and menopause. When the pelvic floor gets stretched out, you can get holes in it and weakened pelvic muscles. So women should do exercises to keep their pelvic muscles strong.")
-http://www.theguardian.com/notesandqueries/query/0,,-1820,00.html (
A GOOD source of physiological data of this sort is the Report of the Task Group on Reference Man, Publication 23 of the International Commission on Radiological Protection (1975). This gives the physiological capacity of the adult male and female as 500 ml, and notes that there is probably no inherent difference between male and female. The habit of urination has a direct bearing on the size of the bladder. If the individual has the habit of urinating frequently, he (or she) may be uncomfortable retaining the average amount.
Mike Fulker, Westlakes Research Institute, Moor Row, Cumbria (fulker@westlakes.ac.uk)
THE QUESTION may be prompted by women's apparent need to go to the WC more frequently than men do. Some have suggested this is due to the woman's bladder pushing against interior parts that cause discomfort, whereas the male bladder bumps up against less objecting parts, so that the discomfort is far less.)
-https://www.healthtap.com/user_questions/725476 (Location and shape different in woman residing with uterus located posteriorly. With child birth, straining , and menstruation women's bladder appears thinner. The pelvic floor gets stretched out, you can get weakened pelvic muscles.)
-http://www.misterpoll.com/forums/51359/topics/81463 (Men vs women, who holds longer? poll.)
-http://www.poopreport.com/Poll/do_women_poop_less_frequently_than_men.html (Who poops more?)
-http://www.xojane.com/issues/fight-for-your-right-to-poop ("Because to be a woman and to talk about poop -- about anyone’s, but especially your own -- that’s subversive. It’s weird. It’s immature. It’s inappropriate."-Which is precisely why I love talking about it!)
-http://thelifeoftami.tumblr.com/archive (A nudist girl. If only I could be so bold.)
-http://nude-girls-in-public.tumblr.com/archive (Nude girls in public!)
-http://cmnf-oon.tumblr.com/archive (Only one girl naked.)
-http://onlyonenaked.tumblr.com/ (Ditto!)
-http://cmnfenfoon.tumblr.com/ (Ditto)
-http://onlyonepersonnude.tumblr.com/ (Yep even more!)
-http://enf-cmnf.com/tag/only-one-naked/ (Videos!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZqPsPBcsu4&feature=em-subs_digest (Girls peeing in all different ways and places)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gak3zfCVhpQ&nohtml5=False (Amazing long line!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=bQ6O40sUh2A&ebc=ANyPxKrzNLBpewL1IJLYQeFG0ouWdbA6rDCB47Voj89Z_3a00fpXjSI1FpXJucEVYmBIkwHWVlTIsrGTk1ZgWhT- vLwzEMZ_ag&nohtml5=False (Ladies fidgeting for the public toilet)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HanHPJC5Qo4&ebc=ANyPxKp229BklNuJ8h5- T1FK1rkCgC_YfPzBPwoaSl0jN6UV_9dtmLAIZRa_bvRShtYPoHzikPq88jHdulaEYqCAnV2cGA9qhQ&nohtml5=False (Woman has to pee and a guy driving won't stop.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D49vvl7BPro&nohtml5=False (Out of order restroom cartoon.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2q1xNuhYOo&nohtml5=False (Bathroom hacks including pooping in public. Good advice!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S5y2ifMrL2Y&nohtml5=False (Battle shits!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o3GpGvi9Dts&nohtml5=False (Woman EXPLODES in bathroom! I think that this is what I fear would happen in my poop desperation scenario!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s2Te3HxWVXY&nohtml5=False (The Bathroom - Short Film - Girls Having Fun. I think this also would be a nightmare in my scenario!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9F2SROy_o6Q&nohtml5=False (Everybody Poops (a PSA) I feel this one was pretty good and it really summed up how I feel about the situation. I imagine things would be quite different in my scenario though because not everyone would poop!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLGnQiaCBfE&nohtml5=False (Women Poop For The First Time)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irto16j85tc&nohtml5=False (What Girls Think About While Pooping. I would love to see her in my scenario!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cG40nHuHRYM&nohtml5=False (Why I like pooping in public. I am positive that I have posted this before but I think it's worth reposting. She would be another one who would be fun to see in my scenario.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq2UeBwsOOA&nohtml5=False (Poop In A Bucket??)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yAW-CWF7Gd8&nohtml5=False (EVERYTHING A TO Z: POOPING IN PUBLIC. I would love to see her as a pooper in my scenario!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wvubM0vG_F4&nohtml5=False (HOW TO: Poop in Public Restrooms! Tips & Tricks)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jWPnhgocTNM&nohtml5=False (Woman caught pooping in public.)
I am a lesbian so I am not really interested in naked guys or anything like that but I do like one-sided nudity and female domination so on a certain level I can enjoy these type of things that someone had sent to me when I was talking about my interest in nonmutual nudity. Again I would prefer CFNF (clothed female, nude female) or ENF (embarrassed nude female) but this was still a little bit interesting so for anyone who is interested in CFNM (clothed female nude male) if you might find these links of interest as well.)

Doing My "Duty": Jury Duty Desperation
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So, wow, it has been a pretty long time since I have updated. I realize that it usually is a long time between updates but I didn't realize it had been nearly an entire year since I had updated this blog. I have been collecting links all that time to post and I think I have about 4000 words worth just of links and description of those links! But the main reason I haven't updated his simply because I don't really have all that many interesting experiences in relation to my fetish, even I think about the old ones all the time. Or at least I didn't have anything new to add until now! And you will be happy to hear that this story is a real whopper, one of my absolute most desperate experiences ever, probably the most desperate public experience I have ever had. I have already told this to several people who really enjoyed it and luckily I saved those descriptions when I was chatting so now I can copy and paste it for the most part, which will save me a lot of time! So maybe I will be able to describe some other experiences as well in addition to this one.
This was one of the most desperate experiences of my life and because it was totally unexpected it was even more intense! This happen just yesterday when I was forced to go to jury duty for the first time ever. I had been called before but I never actually had to go to the place, but I guess my luck finally ran out. So here is basically the description that I told to everyone the other day and that I put in my journals. So I will now just say it word for word and I hope you will enjoy it, although I'm sure if you are a fan of desperation, which I assume you are if you are reading this blog, you will!
Annoyingly I had to go for that jury duty selection thing where they decide if they are going to select you for a case, which is extra annoying for me because I am usually nocturnal and I generally sleep during the day so I had to be up all day when I would normally be sleeping. I had never actually had to go to the place before but today I had to go and you have to get dressed up for jury duty so I was wearing one of my more complicated outfits to say the least. I pretty much never get dressed up but supposedly it's wrong if you don't going really nice clothing so I got dressed in my fancy dress outfit that I probably haven't worn in about two years because I am very much a pants and skirts type of woman and I pretty much never get dressed up an elaborate feminine garb.
I left home at around 8:15 AM because you had to be there by 8:45 AM, so the last time I went to the bathroom was like 8:15 AM, and of course I made sure to bring stuff to drink because I wasn't going to go hours without drinking anything. I am one of those people who never goes anywhere without a bottle of water, but you know when you are sitting there for hours on end with nothing else to do you probably end up drinking more
So mostly I was just half asleep reading a book while I was there but I would sip from my water occasionally. I wasn't getting desperate like superquick or anything like that. But you know if you go hours without a bathroom inevitably you're going to have to go at some point. It actually took me a while before I started feeling the need to pee and then it was probably around noon when I started realizing I had to go noticeably, not desperately, but enough that I am like "yeah time for a bathroom break soon." It was an especially long time to go without a bathroom for me who usually goes every hour and a half. But again I wasn't drinking a lot so it's not like I was guzzling and was only filling up very gradually and slowly compared to usual.
One of the women near me got up and I heard her say that there was no line at the bathroom and I was thinking that that would be a good time to go to the bathroom, but then it was almost 12:30 PM and that was when they were going to dismiss us for lunch. Although they announce who they are calling into the jury in the back in the entire building including the bathrooms, it was very hard to hear the guy doing the announcements because he had like laryngitis or something and his voice was almost incomprehensible. But I didn't really want to risk missing my turn. So I figured I would wait for 12:30 PM when they would let us leave for lunch because then I had an hour and a half to kill where they wouldn't be calling anyone.
But it was more like 12:45 PM by the time they finally gave the call for lunch. I never bother eating lunch because I usually just eat dinner at the late part of the day and I am not even usually awake during this part of the day because I sleep 9/9:30 AM to 4:20 PM usually, because I have a weird sleep schedule but I find impossible to change so when I have to be awake during the day it's pretty exhausting. But I also had no idea how to get around that place and was afraid of getting lost if I left the premises. Plus you have to go through like metal detectors and all this other BS just to get into the court buildings because they are worried someone will bring a gun into the courts and kill someone if they don't like the outcome of a trial. A reasonable precaution though, people are crazy.
So I figured I would just be staying in that building for lunch for the duration until 2 PM when they started doing announcements again. By then it was 12:45 PM which means I haven't gone to the bathroom for 4 1/2 hours! For me that's pretty impressive to say the least. But fortunately I was barely drinking anything because otherwise I am unusually bursting within two hours. So I want to emphasize the fact that I was drinking pretty slowly. I mean I only had like one of those 750 mL bottles that I was just sipping here and there over the course of four hours. But even that will build up over time and there is the fact that I drank a little bit before I left the house etc.
But long story short by 12:45 PM I was at the point where I really needed to pee! I was actually shocked that in all that time I hadn't even got up to go to the bathroom, but as soon as I stood up it hit me that I definitely had to go! I wouldn't say I was bursting or anything like that but on the desperation scale I was probably like five or 6/10. You know when you are pretty eager to go to the bathroom and can't ignore the fact that you have to go.
This is of course the point when you definitely want to start looking for a bathroom. I always like to know where the bathroom is as soon as I come into a place. Fortunately the bathroom was pretty close by and I knew exactly where it was, but unfortunately as I skipped off merrily to the bathroom assuming that I would just pee and be done with it and back in the room within 5 min. I get there and there is a sign that says closed for cleaning! So needless to say I was pretty damn disappointed!
But again I wasn't really panicked or anything at that point. I figured cleaning the bathroom doesn't really take very long, so I went back and sat down and then 15 min. later I got up again and the sign was still up! I figured okay this is really disappointing but I wasn't really in a panic state yet. I thought of maybe looking for a different bathroom but I really was afraid of getting lost as I am very anxious in places that I do not really know very well. I am very easily lost and I am a bit agoraphobic so this whole situation was rather stressful and I just wanted to stay in the area where I was supposed to be because I wasn't confident that I could find my way back if I got lost.
I peeked inside the ladies room and I didn't see anyone in there doing any cleaning. I think it was a case of they put up a sign and a plastic chain on there before they even decided to start cleaning, so again I went back disappointed. I was still not in a panic mode yet but getting at the point where I was getting pretty annoyed because by then I was definitely desperate to pee. What they did was that they put one of those signs outside the door and then there is like a chain hanging over the door that you're not supposed to cross. But the bad thing about waiting in the courtroom is that there's really nothing to do to distract yourself either. I brought a book but I was too tired to continue reading after a while so it basically just sat in the courtroom with a pretty full bladder try not to think about the fact that I was getting rather desperate and antsy.
By then it's about 1:15 PM and I haven't peed in a good five hours and by that point I am probably at maybe a seven or eight on the desperate scale, the point where you are noticeably uncomfortable and just want freaking pee already! At that point it had been six hours since I had last gone to the bathroom and then I was getting pretty antsy and for a while I just stood around outside of the bathroom, and even though I was still pretty desperate my water by then was pretty warm and I noticed that they had water coolers, so I got some nice cold water from that had a couple of cups of that, which I realize was stupid under the circumstances but I was pretty thirsty. At that point I was definitely to the point where I would say I was bursting.
Again I usually can hold a pretty long time if I HAVE to, but normally I go every two hours! Fortunately I was drinking only a little bit throughout most of the day, I can't emphasize that point enough! When I was standing up I was sort of swaying back and forth a little and I started getting a little bit more antsy so I started pacing around a bit. I was sort of just waiting outside the bathroom desperately hoping that someone would come out and finish cleaning it, even though I hadn't even seen anyone go in. Honestly the temptation to use the men's room was extreme but I would never do that especially when they have police officers and stuff walking around, which I have to admit makes me kind of nervous because I have never really been in a courthouse before and there's just sort of an uncomfortable feeling being there.
After a while I figured it would be easier sitting down, so I went back to the courtroom and sat down but then every couple of minutes I would get up to check the bathroom, and of course every time that sign would be there! By then I was getting pretty damn uncomfortable so finally I asked someone if there was another bathroom because by then it was six hours and I was getting pretty antsy, and finally one of the women sitting next to me realized that I looked rather agitated and asked if I was okay. I said that I was just annoyed from sitting around all day and that I was really tired, but then I asked her if she knew if there were any other bathrooms around. She said that that there was the bathroom right outside the courtroom but I explained how it was closed for cleaning and as far as I can tell no one was actually cleaning it!
Then she said she had been there before and she said typically they will put that sign on there around lunchtime and then they will get around to cleaning it whatever the hell they feel like it, and that really was a punch to the gut because by that I really had to pee and for all I knew they probably wouldn't open the bathrooms until after lunch. I didn't really want to get up and perhaps miss my turn but finally at 2:30 PM when I was ready to explode the bathroom was open and I ran right in because at that point I was going out of my mind with desperation and could barely sit still in my seat!
Of course even though they have a courtroom with hundreds of people they only have three stalls and one of them was out of order. I guess they figured that most people would leave and go elsewhere during lunch so there was no need to keep the bathroom open. Luckily there wasn't much of a line (4 women for 2 stalls) but what was really annoying was that all the other women were wearing jeans. My dad said you have to get really dressed up and all this other stuff to go to court but I think almost every single person there was just dressed casually and here I was in this elaborate dress that I had to get out of the way just to take a simple pee! So that made things extra annoying. All these other women were in and out and I was sitting there fumbling with my dress and ready to explode! The only good thing is that because I was wearing a long dress I could cross my legs under that without anyone noticing what I was doing! When I am wearing pants or a skirt it is much more obvious that I am shifting my legs.
But it was so satisfying when I finally got to go! As I have found to generally be the case when I have to pee that bad I also end up having to poop I think because of all the pressure from both of them and of course you can't do one without the other. I always try to avoid doing that in public but I had been holding both for about six hours so I didn't even care at that point. I was practically having an orgasm because it felt so good to just go to the bathroom that I didn't even care if the other women in the bathroom could hear me blasting one out! I will admit that I took my time and got really comfortable on the toilet. I do think that there was a couple other women in the bathroom who heard me in there, but again I was so relieved that I didn't even care.
Luckily shortly after that they called me and I was dismissed and didn't have to go back. But I was like the last one called all day and I was hoping that I would be called like right away. So a total waste of the day but at least I got a good desperate story out of it which is pretty rare for me and I have a good reason to update my blog for the first time in months! I think that that was the longest I ever held it in public before. But again I would have never been able to do that if not for the fact that I was barely drinking anything. But even when I am drinking a minimal amount after six hours I am still going to be ready to explode. But it just goes to show you that you can hold a lot longer than you thought possible when you really truly have to. And as a precaution I did use the bathroom again before I left! And that's the end of the story. I hope everyone enjoyed it!
Someone I told this story too like the fact that my clothing made it more difficult for me to go to the bathroom and I have to say that I kind of enjoy that aspect looking back in retrospect even though it was pretty annoying at the time and it just made me think how much more difficult it was for women to go to the bathroom in the past before women were allowed to wear pants and skirts and stuff like that. I also feel like really feminine when I am wearing a dress like that but it also makes me feel like people will take me less seriously as though I am not very modern. But mostly I was just jealous because all the other women there were able to pull down their pants and pee in 5 seconds and I had to do all sorts of elaborate gymnastics just to get my dress out of the way to go to the bathroom! But that is why don't get dressed up very often. I wouldn't say I'm a tomboy or anything, but I am definitely very very low maintenance and really very slack with my appearance.
I have to admit that as a result of that experience I am now majorly back into my fetish and it will probably take a while for me to cool off from that experience! But the entire time I was there I kept thinking about all of my crazy magical scenarios, which I find happens whenever I am in a crowded place. According to what they told us at the end it was very crowded today because they usually process about 200 people a day, but today they had about 320 people. Assuming a relatively equal split between men and women that amounts to about 160 women and 160 men. I thought about those numbers and applied them to my crazy scenarios!
I am not sure if I mentioned my other scenario here but it was a variation on my poop desperation scenario. The first thing I was thinking is one of 1% of the female population is forced through some magical means or through a virus to be naked all the time! If I were one of that 1% I might have been the only person in that entire courtroom who was naked and I would really stand out and be humiliated! That's a good 320 people who all get a nice peek at me! And I think would be especially bad because you would stand out in large crowds like that. It was mostly older people there, but I think that they might actually be more mature about a situation like that. I think that younger people if they saw a 32-year-old woman standing around naked would probably be a bit more cruel and taunting and probably even more turned on by it. I kind of wonder if that would help my chances of getting out of jury duty or whether that would make people want to pick me! When you think about these crazy scenarios enough to start to apply them to every situation that you come across.
I thought about it even more in regards to my poop redistribution scenario though. If you figure that 5% of women are doing all the pooping in been massively desperate every three or four hours let's crunch the numbers. In this scenario where there was 160 women in the courthouse (estimated) that would work out to about eight women who were poopers. And since we were there for about seven hours that means that every single one of them would have to go at least once and most of them would probably have to go twice, so that's about 16 massive dumps! And remember there were only two stalls available so they would probably be an almost constant use. Of course if my scenario were in effect in the situation I specifically was and I probably would have gone to the bathroom sooner before they closed for cleaning, but if I hadn't I would really have been in a world of shit, quite literally!
I think that is really big public situations like this with lots of people around and limited bathroom that would be especially brutal on the poopers in my scenario. Firstly because I think you would stand out a way lot more. I mean we would have about 152 women who just had to pee, versus about eight women who had to poop massively at least twice during that entire time. If you are gone for a long stretch of time people are going to know what you were doing and he would honestly probably run into the other pooping women, which could be problematic.
Someone I was telling this to pointed out that maybe those women would probably bond in solidarity. I would like to think that was the case, but I also think very much that being a pooper would probably put you into a lot of more conflict situations. I mean the ladies room is pretty much a battlefield when you have a huge group desperate women all needing to go at once. And with only two stalls and that bathroom you have to figure between those eight women having at least two poops lasting about 10 to 20 min. each that means you would all be fighting over control of the bathroom stalls. And that to me I think would be a hilarious thing to see but not a situation I would actually want to be in! You do not want to get into some type of a cat fight when you are holding your ass shut trying not to shit yourself! And if some girl challenged me, I, being the meek and submissive individual that I am, would probably back down and just wait for her to go. And that would be sheer torture. I mean imagine standing there outside the stall dancing around and grabbing your butt cheeks while the other woman is getting blessed relief in the stall. Of course in that scenario I probably prefer that she did go first because then I could go in peace hopefully, although that probably wouldn't be the case because I am sure at least someone else would come in to the bathroom during the duration of my "doing my duty" so to speak. Maybe I will write a story about that on here at some point.
Since my last update I have continued thinking about new aspects of my poop desperation scenario and I probably will eventually publish it as a novel that I will definitely publish under a pseudonym because I wouldn't want anyone I know to actually read it! But I have really thought this out so much detail that I could make a pretty thick novel about it, especially if I make it an anthology with multiple women involved. There are probably a lot of things that I have thought of in that time since I last updated but here are a few of the things that I thought of in regards to my scenario that I have not mentioned before.
One thing that came up was the idea what I would do if I was outdoors. Fortunately I don't think that that would be a problem in my scenario because I spend very little time outdoors and barely leave my house, which is probably why don't have more good sightings and experiences, but when you don't drive and are crippled with anxiety there's not much you can do about that.
The situation that someone brought up this would've I was outside in the middle of the woods and I had to poop. We also combine this with the idea that I was wearing my one-piece swimsuit so that I would have to pretty much take the whole thing off in order to go to the bathroom. It was a crowded public forest or something like that I would be in pretty bad shape because I would have to find some place where I could go to the bathroom for a good 10 or 20 min. without being interrupted while most likely completely naked besides. I figured that since I don't really know how to pop a squat so to speak, I would probably be forced to get completely undressed and just stand and deliver! That would be truly mortifying. I also thought that I could crouch between two trees or maybe sit on a log but the whole situation would be mortifying and humiliating beyond words no matter what happens.
We also thought of the ultimate horrifying situation. He was saying how he would be chivalrous and he wouldn't watch me go to the bathroom and would try to protect me, but we put off what if there was another woman with us who wanted to see me like that and wouldn't leave me alone to go in peace. We ultimately came to the conclusion that I was pretty screwed in that case. But again even if my scenario occurred this would be a pretty unlikely thing to happen unless I specifically sought it out. I was actually going to make the whole story about that was going to call it "Does a Jill shit in the Woods?!" I might still do that at some point!
I have also thought about a lot of the other implications for me personally in regards to my scenario. Again I think I have brought up the fact that I have a reputation as a person obsessed with toilet humor so you can imagine how ironic and what poetic justice it would be if I was one of the few people stuck pooping in a world where the majority of people never had to poop at all. It would be the ultimate day of payback because I would never be able to get anyone else back and the joke would always be on me which would be pretty devastating.
I know that my family, while he would be sympathetic, would also be glad to see that it was me and not them. They find the idea of going to the bathroom in public even just to urinate to be mortifying and disgusting, so they would certainly be pleased if they never had to poop again. But it would be a real lesson to me because I would always joke about how they were so uptight about bodily functions and all of that, but I think that I would probably be totally mortified if they never had to poop again and I had to have really loud messy dumps in a public situation! Like I said when you have to go that bad it's almost like an orgasm. So most of my family would think the idea of doing a loud public dump in the restroom was pretty disgusting. The irony is that if it weren't me who had to do it I would probably find it screamingly hilarious!
I actually do have one aunt that I only occasionally see who unlike her sisters was a lot more like my sensibility in regards to things like peeing and pooping, so I think she got my humor a little bit more and how I was always saying "if you have to go you have to go" etc. I actually think that meeting up with her again in a world where I was a pooper and she was a non-pooper would actually be more embarrassing than with most of my other family members simply because of the fact that she has a similar sensibility to me! Another irony. She is the type of person who would probably joke about it and the thing is I would be completely on the receiving end forevermore.
The one thing I always found really funny is that she would always have all these euphemisms for pooping that she would use. If I had to poop or something like that she would say something like "Jill is going to do her duty" or her favorite "Jill is going to drop some girls off at the pool!" In this scenario it would be totally relentless. She would likely be saying things like Jill is doing double duty or Jill is going to drop off more girls at the pool. For some reason just referring to it that way, I don't know it just seems so ridiculous and hilarious but also really embarrassing the way they refer to it.
The other thing that would be really terrible about my scenario is that if I had this problem of course my family would be concerned and if we were ever out somewhere people would know that I would have to "do my duty" and "drop some girls off at the pool" pretty much everywhere we go. And this again is the ultimate flipping of the dynamics. I used to be that person who is able to just pee in public but hold off on having to poop in public and I would always joke with other family members when they had to poop they should just go already. But in this situation that wouldn't be a concern of theirs ever again, but it would be a big concern of mine, and as a result they would be concerned as well. So all the discussion whenever we were going someplace would be about "Jill's bowels" LOL. They would be asking me if I needed to poop and of course I would and they would probably be trying to find the bathroom and it would just all the discussion about pooping would revolve around my having to go rather than them having to go and that would just be really frustrating.
I think in spite of everything I would still keep good humor about it but it would always be a very self-deprecating type of humor. I mean I would be joking about these things still but I would also feel pretty awkward about it. Kind of hard to make jokes about pooping when you have to poop no one else does. But I do think that I would become more open about going in public and stuff like that. Even just thinking about this scenario has made me more open and less embarrassed about it, but still if you were pooping every three hours everywhere you went and that was one of the defining characteristics of you as a person it's kind of hard not to be embarrassed by that cell would be pretty much a never ending joke at my expense. And I would never be able to get anyone back, like I said already!
That brings me to one final point about this that I had been thinking of recently. I have to admit that when I was a teenager I was even more immature about all things bathroom related that I am now, especially for a girl. I was also pretty immature when I first got the Internet back in high school. My cousin and our friends and eventually whole members of school classes would go to this chat room full of these people we thought were really lame and stupid and we would basically just troll them and annoy them. And I am not talking just about a little bit, I am talking for four or five hours every night for months on end and they could never get rid of us. And of course one of the things we like to annoy them with was talking about all sorts of scatological things and basically toilet humor.
So now imagine my scenario were to occur and I was a pooper! This would be like the ultimate payback. First I was thinking that since it would occur gradually and people wouldn't realize what had happened if I was suddenly pooping a lot I probably would joke about something like that in the chat room. But then slowly after that it would dawn on the fact that only some people were pooping now and I would have already inadvertently outed myself as one of the pooping women. Let that sink in now what I just said.
Imagine you have this girl and her friends in knowing your chat room constantly and bombarding them with all sorts of scatological humor that they find very gross and distasteful and would just love to get rid of you. Now they find out that they no longer have to poop ever again and the girl who is annoying you start running to the bathroom and crapping her guts out all day long and in public besides! I mean what could be more viscerally satisfying to someone than to get that perfect revenge on the person.
And it would have another worse aspect. Remember I would go to this chat room with all of my friends and my friends classmates and some of my school classmates to annoy the living crap out of these people. Now everyone in that chat room does "Jill, the girl who is always making all the poop jokes, is a pooper!" News would spread fast and I would be pretty much outed to all of my friends and classmates. Now I like my friends and classmates, don't get me wrong, but they were about as immature as I was. So if you had the queen of toilet humor suddenly being one of the few people in the world to poop and has to poop constantly, you aren't going to quite let her off the hook!
So this is perfect because it would totally break up our solidarity. I was like the ringleader of this entire group and now whenever I go into the chat room if they wanted to they would just have to mention that I was a pooper and solidarity would be breaking. All of my friends would probably join in with the chat room and be joking about the fact that Jill has to poop all the time! And just the knowledge of the fact that I would know that all of those people I enjoyed in that chat room day after day never had to poop again would be so frustrating. They would pretty much have the perfect comeback anything I can annoy them with. "Yeah Jill, you can annoy us all you want, but you are going to be a slave to your need to defecate for the rest of your life. So have fun with a life of public shitting while our asses will just be for sitting from now on!"
One last thing that I thought about in regards to my scenario is that it would probably also be weird to think that in a world where most people don't poop it would still be these people who have to poop and people would wonder what that was like. I thought it was crazy to think that there would be people who never had to poop and yet there would be this segment of women that poop who would have to do this massive task multiple times a day. Imagine the contrast in lifestyles. The non-purpose would just be nice and sitting pretty all time, while the poopers would have to constantly be running to the toilet every time they felt a pressure in their ass, squeezing those butt cheeks and plopping out some gross ass turds clinging to their sphincters! I just thought it was hilarious to think of it that way. The non-poopers would probably forget about all of this but the poopers would have to still deal with things like a turd clinging to their assholes!
So yes even if this did happen I would still have a pretty wild sense of humor about it and I think over time I could see myself become much more open about pooping in public and even making it as a statement! But I would probably mostly try to hide it if at all possible. But maybe I would become some type of terrorist pooping on people's lawns and using my ass for the purposes of evil!
But now it is getting late so I should probably end things here but this was a long overdue update. I haven't really experienced anything particularly interesting other than what I mentioned above. I remember seeing someone shaking their leg at the movies and then running to the bathroom, there was this woman who was shitting really loud at a restaurant that I went to and I remember this one place I went to I was lucky enough to be in the stall next to some Asian girls who were peeing very loudly! Other than that I have just experienced a few brief lines here and there but nothing extraordinary because I mostly go to uncrowded places infrequently.
I do hope that I will get around to updating more frequently. I don't have many new experiences like the one I related today, which sadly are rare (although they were really, and I think it would be a great inconvenience to my life, much like pooping constantly in my scenario LOL), but I still have lots of past experiences that I have not described here and when that fails I still have a rich imagination so maybe I will try writing some more fictional stories here, even though I don't want to take too much time away from my more "serious" writing.
And now to end with here is about nine months worth of links. Most of the people who have read my blog said that the links were their favorite thing so here's a whole damn lot of them! There is about 4000 words of description and links so it might take you quite a while to get through all of that! Enjoy!
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A Couple of Brief Sightings and a Whole Lot of Links!
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I have a real great idea for another desperation story that is fictional but I don't have time to write that tonight and I don't know when I'll get around to that. I have been chatting a real lot about my fetish in the last couple of weeks since I last updated this blog and that is where the story idea came from. This one's a real doozy and it involves going to the bathroom outdoors. It's a fictional story of course, but one with me as the main character!
I only have time for a brief update tonight but I thought that I would just bring everyone up to date on a couple of fortunate sightings I have had. I don't have a whole lot of sightings or interesting bathroom experiences, but whatever I have even a minor one I like to share it here on my blog. And I have had more than usual lately! I have to say that I am very happy about that.
The first one was a couple of weeks ago where I was at the movie theater. The movie theater is usually not crowded at all. In fact, most of the time I am the only one in the theater altogether because I go at off hours when the movies are cheaper. So it's very rare that I encounter any type of desperation or lines or anything very interesting like that. But that changes a lot now in the summer when the movies are completely packed and every seat is filled. And of course sometimes several movies get out at once. This of course good if you are a fan of desperation and seeing long lines to the ladies room!
My first sighting, as I said, was a couple of weeks ago. I forget the exact date, and it was only something of a minor sighting, but I will take anything that I can get! I almost never see any desperation so this was a sighting worth remembering that got me on a bit of a fetish kick for a while again. I got in line for the bathroom and there were a couple of women waiting outside the door and several more inside. I would guess that there were about 8 to 10 women for two or three stalls. I say two or three because although there are three stalls they never fix that one with the broken lock, which most people won't use if they realize that, so it's like only having two stalls.
I have to admit it wasn't a particularly impressive sighting, but the woman in front of me was definitely desperate! I was lucky to be right behind her in line and she was getting me so excited. She didn't show signs of extreme desperation and wasn't trying to be obvious about it, but she kept shaking her leg out to the side and was clearly very agitated because she kept moving her feet and her legs around. I don't know if I would call it a full-blown pee dance, but you could clearly see that she was a bit uncomfortable! I don't think we had to wait more than five or 10 min., but as soon as it was her turn she ran into the stall and slammed the door shut and had a good loud pee! I wan't desperate myself (I usually go to the movies as soon as I wake up before I have really drank anything, so I rarely end up desperate at the movies) but just seeing that was enough to make me uncontrollably horny.
That is where I have to admit that this fetish is both a blessing and a curse. Although I enjoy my fetish a lot, even the slightest little thing like this, which I definitely look forward to seeing, is enough to drive me completely crazy. Sometimes just using a public bathroom with other women is enough to get me feeling so awkward that it gives me something of a buzz, and then I completely get back into my fetish. It's probably good that I almost never leave the house because if I saw stuff like this more often I would be able to concentrate. And if one of my crazy magical scenarios were to come true I would never be able to get anything done!
But that is why this fetish can be something of a curse. It's such an unusual fetish to have. Most people don't have the slightest interest in going to the bathroom, or certainly don't get sexually aroused by it. But for someone like me who has this fetish for female desperation, if I am in line for the bathroom I start getting excited right away. And if I hear other women going to the bathroom that also gets me excited. And that awkwardness just makes me even more excited! But it makes you feel sort of uncomfortable when something as simple as feeling a strong need to go to the bathroom to make you so excited. It would be better if I had more conventional interests. I certainly wouldn't trade my fetish for anything, but when something as simple as a full bladder, or seeing others with a full bladder, is enough to get you out of your mind with excitement, it can really be hard to focus and stay calm. But boy do I sure enjoy it on the rare occasions when these things happen!
Another brief experience was more funny than exciting. I went out to eat at a restaurant and, as always, I use the bathroom both when I arrive and when I leave. I forget if it was when I arrived there or when I left, I'm pretty sure was right before I left, I went to use the bathroom. In the stall next to me was this girl who was really really loud. You could hear straining and pushing and you could tell she was taking a huge dump and I have to admit that it was very hard to suppress giggling in that situation. But she kept making all these noises and it was just getting me all out of my mind. When I got out of the toilet and saw her at the sink I had to try hard to suppress looking at her and smiling. I admit I lingered in the toilet just because I was having such a fun time seeing, or rather hearing, her in this situation.
But once again this just shows how I have such weird little kinks and it makes it kind of difficult. I can only imagine this situation in my poop redistribution scenario! Whatever something like this happens I can't help but think of that scenario and think of how utterly mortifying it would be to be in her position all the time everywhere I go! But I would also hear lots of other women in that situation. That again makes me feel rather two-faced about it. I take so much pleasure at other people's expense when they are stuck in the type of situations, which is why in my scenario it would be extremely fitting if I was one of the women stuck in that situation constantly. It would certainly learn me some God dammed humility LOL.
The next sighting/experience was also at a restaurant. Truth be told it was nothing particularly impressive, except maybe to me. I was eating at a different restaurant and I saw these two hot Asian women a few tables down. And as anyone who has read this blog probably knows by now, I go absolutely crazy for Asian women. Oh if only I had been born in Japan, how much more interesting my life would be! But I saw them get up to use the ladies room and I have to admit that I couldn't resist following them in there.
This restaurant only has two stalls so they both got into the stalls before me and I stood outside of the door and I could hear them peeing loudly and it was just driving me absolutely wild! One of them finished up and I immediately went into the stall and just sitting on the same seat that her butt had once touched gave me chills. It was awesome sitting on that toilet knowing in the stall next to me was the other Asian girl. I could hear her flushing and finishing up and to think that I was peeing right next to them was just so exciting!
Again I realize that that sighting was nothing special. But I don't really see Asian women very often. I mean I hardly ever leave my house at all, but just seeing some Asian women like that is enough to get me excited for the entire day. But it also frustrates me because the odds are totally against me. There are hardly any Asian women around, let alone Asian women who are also lesbians, and on top of that would share all of my fetishes. And even if they were I probably wouldn't know because I would be too shy to talk to them in that manner. So the odds of my finding a hot Asian lesbian girl with all these weird fetishes, or even just a few of them, are probably not good :(. But at least I can still enjoy these happy little experiences where I do encounter Asian women in public life like that. It's better than nothing!
The last sighting was also nothing that most people would find especially exciting. When I saw the movies last week afterwards there was a fairly large line at the ladies room, but no obvious signs of desperation. I would say the line was at least five out the door and maybe a dozen people altogether. It was annoying though because lots of women brought their children into the bathroom, and I never liked having to use the bathroom when children are in there. It's just something I find annoying. But it slowed the line down, so I was happy for that!
So those are the few brief sightings that I have had in the last two months since I have updated, or close to three months I guess. I realize it's not much or anything particularly impressive, but I'll take pretty much whatever I can get at this point. But now that the summer is here the movies are much more crowded and everything is much more crowded, so I am hoping for at least the next couple of weeks or months I will encounter more and more these type of situations. Here's crossing my fingers that I will end up finding myself stuck in one of these lines and desperately crossing my legs one of these days!
I guess that's basically all for this update. My health seems to be improving now that I have tried acupuncture for my acid reflux problems. I have only had two sessions but it has been nearly 2 months since I have been to the hospital, so maybe it is doing something well. All I can do is keep it up and hope that it works. After 5 1/2 years of being constantly sick something has to work.
I do hope that the next time I update it will be with that desperate pooping in the woods story that also involves involuntary one-sided nudity! I would never be bold enough to do something like that in reality, but I have a very rich fantasy imagination and I hope that everyone reading this blog enjoys it! I have been doing better with my more serious stuff and I am seriously maybe considering writing a fetish novel, but only when my fetish takes over. I would only work on it when I can't concentrate on anything else, and if I ever publish it and I would either publish it on this blog or publish it anonymously under an alias. But I am still paranoid that someone would trace it back to my more serious non-fetish related writing, and that would just be mortifying. So although it's something I consider from time to time, I have made no firm commitment to it at this point.
And now as always to end with a couple of links, well whole lot of them this time! But from what I have heard from the feedback on my blog the links are everyone's favorite, so I am glad that everyone is enjoying them and I will keep saving them between updates. They can really build up fast!
http://motherless.com/D7DA26B (Nude girls rubbing butts!)
http://cfnmandcmnf.net/ (Great nonmutual nudity site.)
http://www.misterpoll.com/polls/602206 (Girls peeing at house parties)
http://forums.theknot.com/discussion/832999/question-spanx-amp-going-to-the-bathroom (Peeing in spanx)
http://thepeoplescube.com/peoples-blog/feminist-group-breaks-urinals-as-a-symbol-of-male-chauvinism-t16210.html (Feminists destroy urinals.)
-https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18603807-potty-theory (A cool new book on women's bathrooms!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=23&v=F03Nf0VCVLA (Dangerpiss!)
-http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2915272/Woman-wets-pants-Horror-Maze-mortified-photo-used-promote-Scream-Park.html (Photo of women pissing herself used to promote haunted house as so scary you'll piss yourself.)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Desperate-schoolgirl-toilet-run-4 (Japanese girls desperate to pee.)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/ (Desperation tumblr)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/chatroomx (Desperation chatroom.)
-http://omorashi-desperation.tumblr.com/bathroomlinecollab (Bathroom line tumblr)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWacMAes2dA&feature=youtu.be (Girl wets herself in constrictive clothes.)
-http://peetrina.tumblr.com/ (Peeing and desperation blog)
-http://omorashiandcatgirls.tumblr.com/ (Desperate catgirls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=10&v=2_7Q1xQ-NWU (How the Urinary System Works )
-http://deadspin.com/5521136/excerpt-from-sarah-silvermans-the-bedwetter (Exert from Sarah Silverman's book, the Bedwetter)
-http://nikkistory.com/2015/02/girls-dont-poop.html (Girls don't poop LOL)
-http://poopeegirls.com/706-girl-pooping-in-the-woods-sitting-on-a-perch.html (This is what I picture in my story LOL)
-http://poopeegirls.com/928-victoria-lee-pooping-in-the-woods.html#cl (Girl pooping in the woods.)
-http://mentalfloss.com/article/30110/why-does-sound-running-water-make-you-have-pee (I was wondering!)
-https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20091109131719AAnjkva (More on running water and peeing.)
-http://www.city-data.com/forum/health-wellness/626346-why-does-sound-feel-water-make.html (Driving over bridges does it too!)
-http://hsionline.com/2010/07/22/running-water/ (More running water)
http://www.reddit.com/r/explainlikeimfive/comments/1wwjlb/why_does_the_sound_of_water_make_me_feel_the_urge/ ("Cells that fire together, wire together."

Your brain is a neural network that stores information in a weird way. Not like a computer "set this to 1, this to 0, this to 1". Rather, it's a bunch of signals that fire when the inputs to them are firing strongly enough. When your brain changes (learning something, new habits, conditioning), that changes the threshold for that firing as well as the weights that connect the related neurons, so as to encourage more or less firing. (Hence the above quotation -- activations that happen together are mutually reinforcing.)

Ultimately, it means that when different events tend to happen together, then one event's happening will trigger the brain activity from the other.

It relates to a whole bunch of other phenomena, like how advertisers mainly focus on making you think "happy thoughts" associated with their product.

Since hearing the sound of water (in cultures with toilets) is associated with the feeling of urination, then they are likewise mutually-reinforcing in the brain. Just the same, while you pee, that makes you more likely to interpret any given sound as being water-like.)
-http://gurumagazine.org/askaguru/sound-running-water-make-want-pee/ (One more!)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3nbtDbHDTJM (Gf just wants to poo. British LOL. Perfect example of how being on the toilet makes you a captive prisoner in submissive position.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8AZQO5hLm94 (Aimee Has To Poop! Love the butt grabbing! Love to see her as a pooper.)
-https://vid.me/f4bn (She pees forever omg torture to watch while desperate.)
-http://www.iflscience.com/plants-and-animals/western-pooping-bad-your-booty (We are pooping wrong.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XNcDBn7W9Wk (A Japanese girl is forced to watch another girl be tickle tortured before being tickled herself!)
-http://i.imgur.com/2xlM9SF.jpg (Awesome story about someone taking a hideous disgusting crap in a bathroom that is less than pleasant. That is kind of like what every crap would be like in my scenario for the poopers!)
-http://thepee.ml/index.php/Main_Page (Books and movies with peeing scenes.)
-http://www.enca.com/south-africa/handcuffed-woman-soils-herself-after-police-deny-her-access-toilet-station (Arrested woman not allowed to use toilet for 6 hours wets herself.)
-http://lovewettinggirls.tumblr.com/ (wetting girls.)
-http://wwwettinggirls.tumblr.com/ (More wetting girls.)
-http://toopeeforyou.tumblr.com/ (Desperation tumblr.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0FSPXYjqFRY (Girl hypnotized to be desperate.)
-http://prettyfetishthings.tumblr.com/archive (Pee site.)
-https://docs.google.com/file/d/0Bw9PnRuV1K44YUt4dFV6TDFfZE0/edit?pli=1 (Excellent very desperate girl in the car.)
-http://shyenfortease.tumblr.com/ (New ENF site.)
-http://project-enf.tumblr.com/ (ENF site with videos and animated gifs!)
http://project-enf.tumblr.com/post/118460464707/girl-lost-her-towel-check-the-full-video (A particularly good ENF gif!)
-http://showyourbeautifulbody.tumblr.com/archive (Standard porn.)
-http://www.gold-water.de/chat/index.php (German pee chatroom.)
(Tickling tumblrs.)
-http://www.femdom-stories.blogspot.com/ (Femdom stories.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_J_nD9Uoew (Pregnant woman desp in car on way to ultrasound!)
-https://twitter.com/peepeefetish (I don't really use Twitter but here is a peeing twitter.)
-http://pee-pee-fetish.tumblr.com/ (Tumblr of the above.)
-http://omofox.tumblr.com/archive (Desperation tumblr with videos.)
-http://2pee4you.tumblr.com/ (Peeing tumblr.)
-http://gobphus.tumblr.com/ (Peeing tumblr.)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Japanese-Girls-Pissing-Desperation-on-Hidden-Cam (self explainitory!)
-http://holdingit.minuteboard.com/m/b/a/showtopic.html?topicid=61740&nr=9 (Asking to use the bathroom for Japanese girls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pWIDulbiZoA&feature=youtu.be (a bunch of women running for the bathroom. Unfortunately it looks like it's in Italian or some foreign language so I don't know what they are saying, but it seems like it is an ad for some overactive bladder medication or something like that.)
(Nudity tumblrs.)
-http://philtoubis.tumblr.com/ (sexy women. Some nudity.)
-http://ptogether.tumblr.com/ (Men and women peeing together.)
-http://www.womanist-musings.com/2008_08_03_archive.html (No more Penis Envy)
-http://www.nude-in-public.com/ (Public nudity site.)
-http://sexy-lady-japan.tumblr.com/ (Japanese Girls.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S0a0I2YMgKs (How to Wait for the Bathroom with Chell (Animation On Display 2013) )
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2wGdOUD3lqQ (Brief bathroom line video.)
-https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmJMaYyRT1E (Responsibility-Waiting for the Bathroom.mov)
-http://www.eroprofile.com/m/videos/view/Sativa-s-tinkle-trouble (Wow that was an amazingly hot clip. The nudity, the desperation, the peeing. All excellent. Though I prefer shaved that didn't take anything away from this clip.)
-http://www.abc.net.au/health/thepulse/stories/2011/11/17/3367126.htm (Incontinence in women. Most interesting part: Whether you're worried about incontinence or not, you're never too young to learn healthy bladder habits.
One habit most of us pick up as children is going to the toilet 'just in case', says Korda, but this is bad advice.

In fact, if you go to the toilet too often, your bladder becomes used to holding less urine - which could cause problems in the long run.

"We should hang on as long as we can instead of going prophylactically. Hanging on and increasing your bladder storage is good for you," says Korda.

Here are some other points to consider:

Ladies, remember to sit on the toilet – don't hover over the seat as this can prevent you from properly emptying your bladder.
Take your time, again so your bladder can empty properly. If you rush and don't empty your bladder you could increase your risk of bladder infection over time.
Try not to strain when opening your bowels. This can weaken your pelvic floor muscles which are vital for bladder control.) I think that I have paired bladder habits because I tend to go as soon as I feel your age. But I do sit on the toilet rather than hover and I do take my time, so I guess I am doing something right at least.
-http://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/j.1464-4096.2004.04821.x/full (Interesting finding is that women tend to pee seven times a day when they are younger versus six for men but that starts to reverse as men get older.)
-http://cpj.sagepub.com/content/32/1_suppl/5.short (Bedwetting in children.)
-http://www.med.monash.edu.au/news/2012/bladder.html (I am glad that I don't have incontinence but I have never had sex or gotten pregnant either.)
-http://www.empowher.com/wellness/content/squatting-when-urinating-bad-women (I guess I am doing the right thing by sitting then!)
-http://myomosecret.tumblr.com/archive (Desperation videos.)
-http://www.xtube.com/watch.php?v=FXspK-S689- (Desperate girl.)
-https://omorashi.org/topic/26543-some-real-stats-about-wetting-from-science-journals/ (Awesome thread on omorashi.)
-https://vid.me/f4bn (Woman peeing loudly.)
-https://youtu.be/ywiwXAfMN_Q (This is where they get the phrase having to piss like a racehorse from. Very brutal if you are desperate and watching this!)
PS-Gay marriage has been legalized nationwide across the United States, so take that all you homophobes out there! I may be completely closeted about my own experiences off-line, and even if I was and am not sure if I could see myself ever being married, but just having the legal option is a great victory for civil rights for all of us kinky people out there who might not fit into the sexual majority. So that's a victory I couldn't help but make some commentary on. So at least one piece of good news is out there lately.
I am still disappointed though that that homophobic preacher who said he would set himself on fire if gay marriage was legalized across the nation didn't go through with it. But like all bigots he was a coward. But still, that would have been awesome to see and the world would have been a better place without him. I hope he ends up crapping his pants on television!

Elevator Desperation Transfer
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I have to admit that I've been in a major fetish mood all week long so I've decided I'm going to update my blog once again, lucky for everyone out there who enjoys my blog! This is a short story that plays upon two of my scenarios. It plays upon both my poop redistribution scenario where 5% of women have to poop for everyone, whereas most and I have to go at all, as well as the additional horror of absorbing desperation from others that I come into proximity with. All of this is of course fiction as are the characters who are really based on real people either, except me of course, but in a totally fictional context.

"I can't believe how long the line was," Clarissa said as we walked out of the bathroom to see that there were several women waiting outside of the door, many with the telltale signs of desperation. Shifting legs, crossed legs, dancing in place and lots of hopping in place and exasperated sighing.
"I know that was such a long wait and I barely made it," I said as I flipped my hair.
"And you had to poop too," said Cindy with a smile.
"Don't remind me," I said as I put my hand against my forehead.
"You were really dancing like crazy, jumping up and down holding your butt," said Clarissa as she laughed. "It was hilarious to watch."
"It's not funny!" I shouted as I stuck out my tongue.
"You know that if it were the two of us who had to poop instead of you, you would've been cackling like a hyena," said Cindy. "It really is quite hilarious, total poetic justice."
"Yeah," said Clarissa. "Here we have a girl who finds other people having to go to the bathroom to be the most screamingly hilarious thing in the world, who pretty much revels in bathroom humor like no one else on earth, and now she is one of a very tiny minority of people in the world who still has to poop, and poop constantly."
"I am so going to get payback for this someday," I said as I shook my head.
"But that's just the thing, you won't," said Cindy. "Clarissa and I are never going to have to have to poop ever again for the rest of our life, and I have to say it's a pretty good feeling, especially knowing how much you enjoyed seeing us in despair." Cindy smacked her hands against her bottom and started laughing.
"She is right Jill," said Clarissa as she patted me on the back and put her arm around my shoulder as we continued walking. "From here on in it's only going to be you doing all the pooping. And then when you go to you certainly go. You must have totally annihilated that toilet there. You were in there for like 10 or 15 min. and were holding up the line for everyone."
I began to blush furiously. "Can we stop talking about my bowel movements!"
"But Jill, you always like talking about ours," said Cindy. "But now that we don't go anymore the only one who has bowel movements is you, so the only person whose bowel movements we can discuss is yours."
Clarissa nodded. "She does have a point Jill. The fact is that we don't have bowel movements, the only one of us who has them if you. So if we are going to talk about pooping experiences, pretty much the only one here who was going to have any stories is you. I mean you have to go like 7 to 10 times a day, so that's plenty of stories for you to share."
"Maybe I don't feel like sharing!" I shouted. "Let's just go to the elevator and get home. After waiting in that huge line and having to go to the bathroom in public I am all pooped out, forgive the pun."
"All right Jill, we will give you a break," said Clarissa as she patted me on the back as the three of us got into the elevator, which was already pretty crowded. Unfortunately we had five floors to go down and the elevator stopped on every floor. The next stop was the fourth floor and that was when three more women got on, making a total of five women and two men in the elevator.
"I don't know if we are going to fit many more people in this elevator," I said.
"Wait hold that elevator!" shouted a woman as she started running hysterically down the hallway. She managed to catch the door just in time and pushed her way into the elevator standing right in front of the three of us. That was when the three of us all noticed that she seemed to be dancing very subtly from leg to leg and doing little squat thrusts.
"Are you okay?" Clarissa asked.
The woman blushed. "I'm a little embarrassed to admit this, but I have to go to the bathroom massively bad," she whispered.
That was when my heart skipped a beat. "Oh no," I said as I began to suddenly feel a very heavy feeling in my bladder and anus.
"What is it?" Cindy asked.
"Oh, nothing," I said as beads of sweat began to appear on my forehead. I couldn't mistake the signs, I suddenly felt like my bladder was going to explode and I scrunched my butt cheeks together to counteract the growing pressure in my anus. I could already feel the turtle head poking out and I crossed my legs to keep my bladder from exploding.
"Don't worry," said Clarissa as she turned to the desperate woman who had run into the elevator, "we will be on the lobby floor in no time and there should be a bathroom down there."
"Hopefully there won't be a line," Cindy said as I began very subtly shifting in place and leaning against the back of the elevator to take some of the pressure off.
"There probably will be though," Clarissa said. "We just waited in the biggest line and the lobby is probably even more crowded because of that big conference they are having down there that is just letting out around now. You might be in for a quite substantial wait."
That was when I noticed that the woman was suddenly standing much more comfortably. Then she said the thing I was dreading. "You know it's really really funny, but suddenly the urge went away. I felt like I was ready to explode a minute ago, but now I feel completely fine." She began to laugh. "Funny how these things happen."
I was so mad I almost felt like slapping the woman, even though I knew it wasn't her fault. But I knew what had happened, my additional curse had set in. I had absorbed this woman's desperation and wow did she have to go! And now I was the one who would have to be burdened with it.
That was when Cindy and Clarissa looked at the woman, then looked at me and could tell that I was agitated and they knew what had happened. "Are you okay Jill," Cindy asked.
"I'm just fine," I lied as my legs began to shake and my butt began to tremble.
"Well at least I won't have to wait in any type of line," the woman laughed, to which Cindy and Clarissa laughed, and I eventually managed to let out some nervous laughter of my own. But the woman could tell that something was wrong. "Are you sure you are okay?" she asked me.
"Yeah, I'm perfectly fine."
"You almost look like I did a minute ago," she said laughing again.
"You know it's funny," I said gritting my teeth, "but I just suddenly felt a strong need for the ladies room."
"Well how about that," said the woman. "Just like that, funny how that works out. I had to go very badly a minute ago and suddenly the urge went away. You didn't need to go and now all of a sudden you notice that you do."
"Yeah, it is funny how these things can just come and go like that, isn't it?" I said as I tried to contain myself, but I felt ready to explode, in more ways than one!
That was when the elevator finally opened on the final floor and I was practically ready to bolt, but I had to wait for everyone out of the elevator in front of me to get out first.
"Well it looks like this is our stop," said the woman as she got out, followed by the three of us. She looked back and forth in the crowded lobby. "I don't see the ladies room anywhere, but I guess it doesn't matter, I don't really feel like I have to go anymore. You ladies have a pleasant day now."
"We will," said Clarissa as she waved at the woman, who very comfortably and breezily started to walk towards the entrance to the building to leave.
"She was nice," said Cindy who turned to me to see me practically hopping in place. "Are you okay Jill?"
"No," I said as I crossed my legs tightly and stuffed my hands into my back pockets. "I have to go to the bathroom extremely bad."
"I knew it!" said Clarissa. "But we just went to the bathroom like 5 min. ago."
"It was the woman on the elevator!" I shouted. "I must have absorbed her desperation."
"How nice of you," said Cindy laughing.
"You know I can't help it!" I shouted as I hopped up and down and place barely able to stand still. "And wow did she have to go."
"Number one or number two?" Clarissa asked.
"Both, " I said, as put by hand in my mouth and bit down hard on my fingers in frustration.
"How bad?" Cindy asked.
"Bad," I said as I continued to dance in place.
"Like an emergency?" Clarissa asked.
"Like Krakatoa about to explode!" I shouted as I looked frantically around for the bathrooms. "Where is the God dammed bathroom!"
"Look there is a sign with a bathroom symbol pointing down that hallway," Cindy said as she pointed. As soon as she said that I bolted running like my life depended on it, even if it was just my underwear that did, but I wasn't about to risk them either.
I ran down the hall practically pushing people down on the way and then turned the corner. There was the ladies room, and there was an entire conference of ladies standing in front of the door. I almost started to cry. That's when Cindy and Clarissa caught up with me.
"Wow, that one's a doozy," said Cindy as she saw the line. "You think maybe you could just hold it?"
"Does it look like I can freaking hold it!" I shouted as I turned around and place with my legs crossed and my hands squeezing my butt cheeks together.
"Well it looks like you're going to have a memorable day Jill," Clarissa said as she again patted me on the back causing me to bolt upright. "Sorry," she said seeing how much that bothered me. "Well look at the bright side Jill."
"What bright side!" I snapped at her.
"At least only one of us has to go, and you managed to relieve that other desperate woman."
"She's right," said Cindy as she nodded in agreement. "That is a good deed for the day. Even though I know you can't control it."
"And we also know how you probably would've enjoyed seeing her totally desperate," said Clarissa. "That is why this is so damn entertaining. You don't even get to see others desperate without becoming desperate yourself. Poetic justice once again."
Clarissa and Cindy slapped each other five and I stuck out my tongue at them. "You guys are such bitches!" I shouted.
"Yeah, but we're your best bitches," said Clarissa with another slap to my back as she and Cindy got in line behind me. "And we're going to wait here with you in solidarity."
"Aren't you just the greatest," I said with a heavy dose of sarcasm.
"Yeah, plus we don't want to miss the grand finale!" Cindy said as she again slapped five to Clarissa.
So the next half-hour was a grueling ordeal and I know that Cindy and Clarissa enjoyed every single moment of it. By the time we finally got to the front of the line I was feeling weak at the knees from the exhaustion of holding it. And then at last the middle stall opened and I practically knocked down the woman coming out as I slammed the door shut, jerked down my shorts and slammed my ass on the toilet seat. I didn't even take time to look to see where I was going. I could feel the seat was wet, but I didn't even care as I exploded at both ends and the relief was so great I couldn't help but yell in relief. I started to shed tears of joy and began to feel a little bit lightheaded, as though I had just given birth.
After a couple of minutes I emerged from the stall and as soon as I opened the door Cindy and Clarissa were standing outside clapping, and then everyone else started clapping as well. I turned completely red with embarrassment.
"That was quite a performance Jill," said Clarissa.
"And just think this is how things are going to be forever and ever," said Cindy with one of the evilest smirks that I have ever seen on a human face before.
I shook my head and went to go wash my hands. Then the three of us came out of the bathroom and surveyed what would seem to be still a very long line behind us.
"Two times in one day," said Cindy as she shook her head, "I have to say Jill, that's quite a workload."
As we started to walk down the hallway I felt more relief than I had ever felt in my life. I felt lighter than air like nothing could possibly go wrong. But that was when I heard shouting.
"Oh my God where's the bathroom!" shouted a woman as she ran towards us before stopping and standing there jogging in place, clearly desperate out of her mind.
"Oh God dammit," I muttered under my breath as I saw the woman slowly become more relaxed.
Cindy and Clarissa looked at each other and smiled and then looked at the woman. "It is down that way," said Cindy as she pointed towards the bathrooms. "But there is a pretty huge line."
The woman stood there and looked at the line and then breathed a sigh of relief. "You know it's the craziest thing, I suddenly don't feel like I need to go anymore."
"How about that," Clarissa said. "I guess that's a lucky turn of events, isn't it?"
"I guess it is," said the woman as she began to laugh along with Clarissa and Cindy. Then she started skipping merrily on her way.
"Well you know what they say Jill, third time's a charm," said Clarissa as she patted me on the back once again.
And as I felt my bladder and anus begin to ache once more I pulled on my hair, looked at the ceiling and screamed.

I hope you enjoyed that story as this one that I was thinking about for quite a while. I would've made it longer but now it's getting late and I have to go to sleep. But I updated my blog after just two weeks, so that's something to be proud of. Hopefully now I will get off of my fetish binge and get it out of my system. But at least I got a good story out of it and I hope you all enjoyed it. And once again I don't know when I will update again, as it depends on my level of interest and what I might experience. These urges tend to fluctuate a lot. The slightest little thing can set it off, sometimes just using a public restroom and then it can last for a long time. But even when I don't have any new interesting experiences to report, I still have a large repertoire of fiction, as I am a novelist after all :). So until next time happy holding!

PS-The clip that I posted in the links below about Nicky having to poop was partially the inspiration for this story. I pictured myself running into that woman in the hallway and absorbing her desperation from her! So I think this story might be enhanced if you watched that clip and then read it back with that in mind.

-http://watchgirlspeeing.com/videos/videos/545/hot-blonde-seductively-peeing-in-urinal/ (a blonde woman peas into a urinal)
These are just a bunch of nudity based tumbler blogs that I found focusing on embarrassed nude female and various other forms of one-sided nudity. And couple involving pee as well.
http://www.peeteevee.com/albums/video/asian_lesbian_pee/ (Asian lesbians peeing on each other!)
https://www.poopeelife.com/ (another site about desperation and going to the bathroom)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vlsaPN6fOQY (Nikki has to poop. Imagine for the women in my scenario this would happen every day!)
http://www.experienceproject.com/groups/Like-Female-Poop-Desperation/503792 (I still have yet to join experience project but I am actually quite flattered that when you look at the topic of women desperate to poop on Google or maybe it was bing that my blog comes up as the most popular result! I can only imagine what it would be if my scenario really did come true.)
http://www.voyeurstyle.com/watch/1148/desperate-girl-pooping-in-toilet-hidden-cam-video/ (I am generally only into the desperation aspect of this, but I thought this was a pretty good clip.)
http://jezebel.com/5926790/the-real-way-to-poop-at-work-with-100-secrecy (Good advice for my scenario!)
http://askinyourface.com/2011/02/05/pooping-and-your-mood/ (I think everyone is in a better mood once they have gone to the bathroom.)
http://hiit-blog.dailyhiit.com/hiit-life/taking-huge-dump-help-lose-weight/ (At least the women in my scenario will stay thin LOL.)
http://www.heapsoffun.com/pooping-in-public_4983.html (photos of women desperate to poop in public)
http://www.urinetown.co.uk/ (Urinetown in England.)
https://alpha.tnaflix.com/piss-videos/Pissing-Giga-Desperation-Contest/video45882 (The all time classic Japanese desperation video.)
https://www.tumblr.com/search/potty+parity (Here’s a quick concept I made at the end of last semester. It’s called Waiting to Pee.

Waiting to Pee is a location based app that helps you estimate the wait time at a public bathrooms. The app also anonymously records the actual wait time and location to a database that can be used to quantify the amount of time people (usually women) wait in line. You can’t manage what you don’t measure.

This information could then be used to help with the creation and enforcement of newer, fixture based, potty parity laws, or spin reports for larger organizations on how much potential revenue they’re missing out on for every 5min someone has to wait to pee.

Restroom disparity remains one of the most tangible relics of gender discrimination within the western world. Aside from taking foreeeeevvvvvveeerrr, waiting in long bathroom lines can cause and aggravate numerous kidney and bladder issues, which can be a serious health risk. )


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